Highlights of my Day... Friday, June 22

1. The other day I got an interesting email from a long-time, far away friend who's actually the parent of one of my former students. She and I have been talking off and on about relationships. She's now married with children and her children are now married with children. We're at polar opposites. Anyway, she had mentioned an interesting point to me the other day, she wrote, "that someone could be right in front of your face but because they are so there you can't see them. Like you can't see the trees because of the forest". That comment stuck with me all day.

2. Sat on my couch and pondered her comment for quite some time. She totally had me thinking... maybe I've already met "him". After all, how was I expecting to know when I've met "him" anyways?... did I expect fireworks or something so obvious like a sign that read "This is him"... hmmm. Having said that, who has crossed my path so far that I'd consider to be "him"..... ???

3. Based on this thought alone, I was thinking about canceling my lunch date today but, because he was coming in from Seoul, I didn't. I was flattered by his efforts and so I met up with him. To be brutally honest here, even though I'm sure he'll read this, I spotted him and hid. He stood there looking for me and when I saw him I totally was flooded with doubt and so I popped into the store.

4. Realizing how silly I was being, I came out of hiding and off we went for lunch. Yet again, I have found another person who talks more than my mom! I sat and listened to his stories about work, the promiscuous Japanese man, books he's read, the ugly fish Koreans love but Chileans don't, and so forth. I didn't speak much but instead told him I don't like to talk.

5. We ate at TGIF and I don't particularly like Western food anymore but it was nice to get out of the heat. I haven't been here since Ryan and I broke up but it was relieving to see that the staff had all changed and so no one knew me.

6. My date was a nice guy but not my type. Apparently I'm not his type either cause after he called me skinny he then said he didn't like skinny girls... is he really Korean?!! This is a first. I thought he was sweet but a bit strange. He told me that he wanted to be a dog, more specifically, he wanted to be Mi Nam because Mi Nam gets to sleep with me... wow, how blunt and too the point was that!!! Anyway, I tried to take it as a compliment, it was a strange compliment nonetheless. Things were ok but then he totally killed it when leaned forward and said that I had a huge wall up. He said that this huge wall I created around myself makes it really hard for someone to get into my heart. Well, considering I've been called cold hearted in the past, I guess it was a compliment?! If having some "wall", as he puts it, means I'm not easy, than good! Let me put up another layer... oh ya!!! I'd rather be picky with who I let into my heart thanks. I know we all think we're different but, truth be known, we are and so I'll keep up my wall and guard myself because I think love is special and it shouldn't be easily given out or acquired. I don't give my heart up easily not because I don't want to get hurt but because I don't think every guy is worth having my heart. But, when I do give my heart over to someone, I give it to them entirely, no strings attached.

7. Left my date feeling a bit discouraged and so I went into work to see Ki Dong and say hi to some people. I had promised him I'd drop by. Ki Dong's always up for a good story and he's always got something to say... I needed a good laugh.

8. Later in the day, I still had my friend's comment about "the trees and the forest" on my mind and so I made a long distance phone call to Canada. He and I haven't talked in quite a long time but he is someone that I care a lot about and it's strange cause I've never really thought about this before. I mean, I cried my eyes out when he suddenly disappeared. Hmm... Anyway, I won't get into the details of it all but will say that it was great to talk to this particular person again and I'm hoping that in one year our paths will cross again... here, in Korea!

9. Dinner celebration with Hannah and Jae Min at Mainz. Big props to me on taking them to Mainz! They loved it! Hannah showed up looking super cute in her new outfit... wow... my friend is so pretty! After dinner we all separated our different ways. Jae Min had to go to work and Hannah had a birthday party to go to. She ended up text messaging me to tell me Buff Boy was where she and her friends were. I don't know why I did this but I ended up changing back into my outfit and heading off to quickly drop by. Yup, he was there. He was there with two girls, one of which is "notoriously known" at my gym... yup, I shouldn't have gone there. I arrived just minutes before he was about to leave. I acted all surprised when I saw him. He walked up to me and then told me that we have to go eat together one day again... I said ok but in my mind I was screaming, "Ya right... what, so I can be another one of your 'girls'?"

10. Around 2am, hours after I had already gone to bed, I got a text message. It was Buff Boy... he's never texted me before. Getting a text from him meant I had to turn the lights on and get out my Korean dictionary. I'm such a girl... I told him that I went to Khan cause Hannah told me he was there. I shouldn't have said that. Regardless, I was in a weird mood and so I called him Playboy. Text messages continued till after 3am.

QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Do you understand what I mean?

QUOTE OF THE DAY...
Diarrhea of the mouth.
-- my favorite word today...hehehe.