Highlights of my Day... Thursday, October 25

1. Lately I feel like I’ve had the weight on my shoulders and as if I’ve been standing alone, beating my drum to a different beat, or so to speak. Today I faced yet more criticism and objection. It came from some of my homepage readers. Now, yes, I am fully aware that my page is open to the public and thus will meet all kinds of people. What my readers are apparently unaware of though, is the CENSORSHIP, OBJECTIVITY and the fact that I WILL NOT CHANGE WHO I AM FOR SOME RANDOM PERSON. I like who I am and I say this because lately I’ve been getting attacked about the whole Seo issue. I tried to “save face”, not my face but his by editing what I write and leaving out details… some of which are bigger than others.

2. Today Seo’s friend thought he’d take a shot at me and put me on a quilt trip… it didn’t work. Nor will I ever be the ogor of a girl you have made me out to be. Ask Seo what he did Sunday, October 14th and why he called me about 4 dozen times within an hour and a half. If me posting this makes me an ogar and Seo never talks to me again, so be it.

3. I AM SO BEYOND CARING ABOUT WHAT RANDOM PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME.

4. Maybe I should inform you that I am VERY COMFORTABLE with opposition and I am VERY PROUD to not follow the crowd or let people get under my skin. No one knows how to be a better me than me. We all are different, I respect that. I just wish others did too. While I'm out living a life and trying to do what I think is right for myself, others are HERE, pointing their fingers at me....

So what opposition have I faced, you ask… hmmm… let me list off a few:

A. MY BOXING… many say boxing isn't for girls, that's total BS. My parents hate the fact that I box and because of it, I no longer am on good terms with them, or so I feel. I know they don’t support my boxing and so they've gone from emailing me a couple days a week to about once a month. I don't understand but, I have to accept it.

B. MY WEIGHT TRAINING… I’ve had friends flat out tell me that being a “strong
girl” isn’t sexy in Korea… that’s cool. I don’t want to be a sexy girl and I really don't think sitting on your butt is sexy... let's see each other in a couple of years when gravity has kicked in and we're over our prime. I'll be the buff 30 year old you could only wish to chase but can't cause you're out of breath! Moreover, being a sexy girl doesn’t help me in the ring and I happen to think being strong, working out and getting my body in best shape is pretty hot and respectable. Weight training is more than just lifting weights… it involves self-discipline, dedication, respect for my body and the intelligence needed to plan an effective routine and proper nutrition.

C. MY MOVE TO KOREA… my friends in Canada question why I gave up such a sweet life full of friends, money, good times, and opportunity to live quite the opposite life. Many continually tell me Korea isn’t a future, it’s merely a stepping stone… stepping stone to what, I ask. This was what I studied in university, English and Korean culture. I'm out exploring life, what are YOU doing?!

D. ENDING MY ENGAGEMENT… I know it was some time ago but I’m still getting slack for it from some people, some of you that I don’t even know! Ya, sure… my ex-fiance and I had it all… the house, the Porshe, the huge extended family, the money, … but I wasn’t in love and I really don’t care to be someone’s trophy girl. I refuse to settle, that's so easy but it's not me.

E. MY VIDEOS… call me vain, I don’t care. I’m not vain. Making videos has become a hobby of mine, it’s a way to amuse my friends, and it lets me escape whatever stress I’m dealing with.

F. BEING A PROFESSOR… despite definitely earning my position and fighting hard to score such a position at Dankook, many people have argued that English professors in Korea aren’t “real” professors. For those who say this, I’d like to invite them to my class for a day so that they can see that I bring just as much passion and energy, if not more, to the classroom and I go way beyond my job description. While they’re all out on a Saturday night, I’m religiously emailing ALL 293 STUDENTS EVERY Saturday.

G. DRAMA WITH THE BOYS… first of all I don’t like drama, hence why I’m quick to end a relationship. I can’t win with you though. I sense drama, end the relationship before I get too involved and then I get called a player. But, if I take the
drama and stay longer, I get accused of liking drama.

H. MY HOMEPAGE... I created my homepage as a
means of keeping in touch with friends and family back in Canada but now more
than just them read it. Many argue that I give too much detail or write too
much... I'm not sure if you want me to apologize or not but I'm not going to. I
try to censor my page somewhat but may I remind you... this is MY homepage. If
you don't like it, you DON'T HAVE to read it. I will still sleep at night if you
don't read this.

5. So enough of that… that was me venting in hopes that it’d inform many people that I am not about to change who I am. If you have read ANY of my postings, you’d be quick to note that I’m as stubborn as a Polish girl comes and I’m very independent. I learned a long time ago to only depend on myself and to make decisions on my own. I am not weak in any sense of the word and am quite proud of who I am and who I am becoming.

6. As for my day though…. Hmmm… oh ya, in class today one boy had me in tears. I was buckled over with laughter… oh my gosh! The question on the exam was, “What is your favorite brand of clothing?”. He didn’t know what brand his shirt was and so he lifted it up to read the tag on the side of his shirt. Well, it got caught on his necklace and so he sat there squirming in his seat with his shirt pulled up way beyond his stomach.

7. You can imagine his embarrassment! I tried to make light of the situation and make him feel better by asking him sarcastically if he worked out (boy was sporting a mad 6-pack), but some how I came across looking like a pervert. It was so funny though.

8. Murphy’s law… the day I wear my new suede jacket and suede boots, and forget my umbrella is the day it pours!!! Apparently I wasn’t the only one stuck in the rain and so as my taxi made it’s way off of campus, I got the driver to stop and pick up random students of mine I saw walking in the rain.

9. Oppa interrupted my weight training tonight to harp on me about not making plans with him lately, I’ve been so busy though. Finally, I agreed to plans. He and Eun Young are going to take me out for tak galbi on Sunday.

10. With Junior Mint out of town for tomorrow’s big fight and Milk Dude away with some other boxers, I had no coach to train with and so I focused on the heavy bag. I love hitting the heck out of it. Myoung June knew I was training and so he swung by to see me and to drive me home… great guy.

QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Who are YOU to judge me?

QUOTE OF THE DAY...
Your attitude stinks worse than your feet.
-- one of my elementary school teachers