I don't really want to talk about it right now. I don't really want to think about it right now.
I don't really want to write about it right now.
Later this week I'll update you with details but for now I just want to forget about it. On Monday I am going on a much anticipated trip with Q and so that's all I want to think about right now.
I am ok, don't worry. I have no injuries to by my body but my face... that's alittle banged up. Have a bit of a black eye, a bruised lip, a stiff neck, and a nasty swollen right jaw that Q thinks is cute while others have asked me if I got cheek injections.
Losing that fight really hurt, emotionally, but I would especially like to thank Ginny, Q, Jae Min, and Ki Dong for really being there for me. Ginny, when my fight ended and I was leaving the ring, you running up to me and telling me "I'm so proud of you and I love you" was exactly what I needed to hear. It felt as if you were my mom. Thanks to Jae Min and Ki Dong for sticking around after to act as "tear control". And Q, for always making me smile even when I think it is impossible to do so.
I am sorry to Junior Mint for not winning the game he so thought I could, would, and should have won. I could careless what others thought about me losing cause, well, they weren't in that ring nor would most of them have the balls to do what I do.
I feel I have failed Junior Mint and myself. I know many people just think it's a game, but it's not. I had waited so long for this "game", as you may call it, and I lost. I feel heartbroken right now, seriously, so please, just give me time.
I am sorry.
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Amy I think regardless of the fact that you think you lost, you really did not. You faught your hardest and you will always be my champ. Don't let this 1 fight kill your spirit.
You didn't fail.
And you are right. I wouldn't have the balls to box like you.
Thanks for the closure, even though you didn't feel up to it. I was curious about the result.
By the way, how did your teammates do?
I read about your game on Nate. Congrats on the fight Amy. You're a celebrity now! You gave it your all and no one can ever say you didn't.
You have nothing to be sorry for Amy.
I'm sorry you lost your fight, Amy. I'm sure you did your best though and that this was a tremendous learning experience. I so admire you for your dedication to your sport and your drive to improve. Hope you have a lovely time on your trip with your cutie Q!
Hey Amy!
This is my first time commenting on your site and I want to say that I'm sorry your fight didn't turn out as you hoped. But~~ like everyone else, I think you won just the same. You've got guts and we totally respect you for it. So keep your chin up and remember, every failed attempt brings you closer to the day you will succeed. Go Amy, FIGHTING!!
Like the say Amy!you NOT lost ,but WIN the ficht!..the whole raod to comes there in the ring,THAT was the ficht..your oponent had the luck to win that game ,but you won the overall!...so you know now that you CAN do what is needed..and remember!,how harder the ficht is to get the victorie,the sweeter the'are!!...so time for revange!..keep going ,and NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT GIVE UP!YOU ARE A TIGER!!!..have now a GREAT time whit your GREAT lover Amy & Q
Not winning the first time, can make things go in two possible directions. One: give up. Two: Try harder. And, I don't see you as the giving up type, Amy.
In life, nothing can compare until you experience the real thing. You worked your ass off to get yourself into that ring, physically and emotionally.
You're still a champ. You had (and still have, I hope ^^) the guts, determination and drive to do what you wanna do, and give it your best shot. That is something for your friends and readers to admire.
Doesn't matter what place you come, the experience is a great learning tool to know where your next move is, and how to better yourself. That's what the past is good for.
I know you worked hard Amy, and that you thought you could win. But dont take it too hard. Just think about how the person you fought to be pro felt. You are competeing against other people who work just as hard as you do. Try to be open minded, and be happy that the other person could have a victory.
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i believe in you amy, always have, always will
i second that comment about not having the cajones myself to be in that situation so yeah for you! you found what you want and went after it, that's something many of us can't do.
this was only the first of your career, i feel sorry for your next opponent!
Hey, I didn't get a chance to view your fight yet because I've been so busy but don't feel bad about the outcome of your fight. Not many people would box in a ring and who's to say next time you wouldn't come out on top. You'll get other opportunities for sure. Keep up the training you'll do fine.
Beth
WOW... where do I even begin to thank you ALL for the AMAZING encouragement and AWESOME words?!
Hey Mario,
At first yes, it did really kill my passion for boxing. I was quite upset and discouraged but now I am ok. Have you ever wanted something SO damn bad?!.. well, this was this fight for me. I just felt like I had let my team mates down. Slowly though, I am dealing with it and getting over it.
Dear Anonymous #1,
Thanks... ya, strangely enough, being in the ring is what I love. I'm not afraid of getting hurt but I take my boxing very personal.
I'm sure there are things you do that I wouldn't dare do.
Hi Anonymous #2,
You welcome.
Both my team mates, Black Skinny and Panty Boy Jr. won their fights by knock-outs. They were amazing and I have all that more respect for them. Having stepped in the ring to fight, officially, I really gained a whole new higher level of understanding and admiration for them.
Dear Mr. Lee,
Thank you. My students told me about me being on Nate and Naver too... hehehe.
Hello Stacey,
I know that but it doesn't mean that it still doesn't hurt though.
Dear Beloved,
Yes, it was definitely a learning experience... a humbling and eye-opening experience but one that I think I needed to experience. You need to know the sour to know the sweet.
Thanks for your kind words.
As for my trip... trip is now over, as you may have read on my homepage. It was definitely a much needed trip.
Hi May,
Thanks girl ;) Keeping my chin up will kill me in the ring though... hehehe... but I know what you mean.
Hello Vbuuren,
Thank you for the cheerleading! I really could use you here in Korea, by my ringside! Hehehe...
I will not give up. Fighting is what I have trained for. Boxing isn't what I do, it's who I am. I know this. I think this fight really opened my eyes up to what I need to now focus on, improve, and bring to the next fight.
Yo Andy,
Very well put, thank you.
And no, I am not the giving up kind of person. If anything, this fight has really weighted on my heart and mind, and so I am back at training... using what I experienced in my fight to fuel my training and focus in on what I now have to do to be better.
Dear Anonymous,
... Bram?!!! ;)
I hear ya, you have a very good point... interesting point.
Thank you for always believing in me!!!
Hey Amanda,
Hehehe... my next opponent... I am starting to feel sorry for her too. Mind ya, even though my opponent on Saturday won, I feel sorry for her. I know I gave her some really brutal right hooks and a bad bloody nose. I'm sure she's still feeling my hooks... ouch.
Yo Beth,
I'll for sure keep up with the training. Mind ya, getting back into the club this week will be hard, emotionally. I'm really struggling with trying to shake my loss from my head.
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