2. Tuesday classes seem to be my favorite so far. I think it's a psychological thing though, seriously. Last semester my Tuesday classes rocked and so I think I subconsciously connect that with this semesters' Tuesday classes... or not.
3. In class today I totally blushed... it was so embarrassing. And no sooner did I feel my face heating up but then I blushed even more at the idea that I never really thought of myself as a shy girl but there I was, in front of about 30 students all looking at me, all watching me blush and struggling to hide my face behind the book. At the time, I didn't think it funny but later I got a good laugh when students filed out of the classroom and bombarded me with comments, telling me that I was so super cute today. Shyness is definitely a trait I didn't think I had but a trait Korean girls are notorious for... have I adapted so much that now I too have this trait?!
4. Whenever I have a quiz in class, I have it at the start of the class and they all know that 2 minutes after the class has officially started, I lock the classroom doors. I don't like late students interrupting my quiz. Anyway, today one student was late. He sat outside in the hall and when the quiz was over, I told him that he could come back in. He never came in. Instead, he sat outside with his head peeking around the corner as he struggled to watch my class. Obviously he didn't understand my English. Turns out he doesn't understand any English, nor is he eager to learn or even try for that matter cause at break time my Korean was really tested when he approached me. He went on and on in Korean.
5. Ended up treating like half of my class to banana milk... we bought all the banana milk the campus store had... hehehe.
6. After class I stuck around to talk to one of my graduating students. She's a super sweet gal that absolutely glows and wears a perma-smile. We walked around campus chatting about relationships and traveling. Her once serious boyfriend has moved to Canada to study and so now she is stressed about the future of them. Her English is really good and so we got into quite the deep discussion. I love conversations like this with my students... so mature and so beyond the textbook... so real.7. Later on I met up with Q. I was craving soonda-boo jigga and so we headed off to our secret restaurant tucked away in the countryside where we eat till we felt bloated... hehehe.
8. Decided to go for a walk after eating and so we headed over to the Independence Hall where the grounds are quite pretty. For the most part, the grounds were empty. Anyone around was in the actual hall and so Q and I had the whole place to ourselves. Mind ya, Q got caught doing one of his famous "sneak squeezes" by some random Japanese tourist who was taking pictures... hehehe. What's a sneak squeeze you ask, well basically, Q has this thing with trying to secretly squeeze my butt in public... hehehe. He thinks it's so funny but more often than not, he gets caught. He does in public elevators, in the street, at the store, at the movie theater, and so on. Today he did it at the Independence Hall and was caught on film... hehehe.
9. Studying at Q's house was quite unproductive tonight when we both past out after dinner and woke up a few hours later. Finally when I did sit down to study, I realized I hadn't finished my homework. Instantly I felt so stressed. My body broke out into a sweat and I felt so uncomfortable. Struggling on the vocab is rough enough but not finishing my sentence translations was really stressful, it takes so long.
10. Ended up backing up my stuff and asking Q to drive me home. I was so frustrated. I study so hard but sometimes I seriously feel like my Korean is going no where. Memorizing vocab seems impossible. And if I wasn't stressed enough, Q threw out "I don't want serious girlfriend" on the ride home. I know him well enough to know that he meant he doesn't want a girlfriend who's character is serious, but honestly, it really got me thinking. Does he see anything for us beyond the now or am I just the back burner girl... the runner-up before he finds the real "winner"?!!! Sometimes when I am with him, I feel like everything to him but then he throws out comments like this and it confuses me. I really hope Q's thoughts aren't the same as Byung Ryang, the first true love of mine who shocked the socks off me when I realized he would never marry me cause I am not Korean. If that's how this is going to go down, again, then I'm done with love. Seriously. My break-up with Byung Ryang took me about a year to get over, and over Q, if it came down to that, would definitely crush me. I've been broken once, twice would shatter me. There'd be no third time for me. If what I have with Q never goes beyond the now, than I rather just live my life with Mi Nam by my side.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
What does he really think?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
-- Jason Jordan
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