1. One of my students came to class today all banged up. He had a car accident yesterday that left him with two bloodshot eyes, numerous cuts and bruises on his face, and a broken arm. He came late to class and when we all caught sight of him, everyone went quiet. I was reminded of one of my other students who got into a car accident about a year ago and wasn’t so fortunate. He lived but his condition was much worse and I cried when I visited him in the hospital.
2. My campus couple in my class experienced their first big couple spat and so it was really awkward for them in class because they sit beside each other. They met last semester in my English class and so I was happy to see them again in my class this semester. But today the two refused to work together and at one point, the girl left the class in tears. I felt so bad for them. They’re such a sweet couple… well, they WERE.
3. I think something’s wrong with my head… seriously. For starters, I lack the motherly gene that makes most girls go all goggle-eyed over babies. I seem to be getting more detached to things as I get older as supposed to doing the expected settling down thing. I fear becoming one of those soccer moms who’s hobbies consist of collecting coupons from the local supermarket and attending early Saturday morning soccer practices with bed head cause their life now revolves around their kids. I seem to be running away from the marriage bandwagon and my idea of the perfect house involves a downtown loft that is definitely not childproof, not child-appropriate and not necessarily meant for two people. And now I have a boyfriend who’s more faithful to me than Mi Nam and it’s questionable as to who adores me more, and yet what do I do?!... I found myself daydreaming today about a dude that could probably kill me in public and get away with it because of who he is and what he does… how twisted is that?!
4. There’s no sense in it. It makes absolutely no sense that I am attracted to Gangster Oppa who’s got basically nothing in common with me besides us attending the same boxing club, us sharing a common luxurious taste in style, and besides the boredom that has plagued my life recently. I have a wicked boyfriend who always greets me with a smile, is super cute and hilariously silly, who is quick to give me back massages (huge thanks to God for that!!!), and who tries really hard to be a good person. So why am I not jumping to joy that I found a wickedly beautiful man who’s probably more of a man than most the men I know some of my friends have ever hooked up with?!!!
5. I blame it on the population… yup… I blame it on the population and the water I’m drinking. Something’s gotta be in the water cause I’ve been drinking a ton of it and well, with the population, there’s just too many cuties out here. I mean, I went to Canada for three weeks, saw tons of half-naked dudes while playing beach volleyball and what not, but was only really attracted to two guys, both of which were Asian men and one of which was a Korean guy. It’s like God’s trying to tease me by creating all these beautiful men and throwing a good whack of them right here on my doorstep in Korea. I mean, even the delivery dudes he’s been sending me lately are total lookers… what’s up with that?!!!
6. On Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays, I usually go boxing around 3pm and so I usually see Gangster Oppa on these days because he goes there at 2:30pm. His training and my training routines are much different and so our time at the club together is pretty limited. Today, mind ya, I found myself thinking too much about him and it frustrated me. I have Q. Q is an awesome guy and it’d break his heart if he knew I was struggling with such feelings. Goodness sakes, I’d be crushed if I was dating some dude who thought about some other chick… oh wait,… I did date THAT dude… dang!!!
7. So, I stayed home for a bit, tried to kill time, and then I headed out to boxing. I didn’t want to run into Gangster Oppa. But, what do you know… who should I run into at a most awkward moment?!... Gangster Oppa. Yup. What had happened was Junior Mint had just finished training when I arrived. He wanted to take a shower and so he told me to manage the club and answer the phone if anyone called. I was all alone in the club and we weren’t expecting any of the high school kids to come for another 20 minutes and so, I locked the club door and stripped down to my bare necessities so that I could get a proper weight weigh-in. But as I stepped off the scale and turned around, there stood Gangster Oppa, looking at me,… me in my sports bra and panties. If I knew I was going to do a "public" weigh-in, I definitely would have worn some more appropriate bottoms!!! I really had no options as to what to do so I put my head down and tried as hard as I could to walk confidently past him and into the change room. When I got into the change room, I closed the door and thought I’d burst with embarrassment.
8. Turns out he was in the change room when I had first arrived. I could have sworn that the club was empty though. Regardless, when I exited the change room, Junior Mint had returned and was oblivious to what had happened and Gangster Oppa never said anything.
9. Later in the evening, much later after my embarrassing situation, I was still stressed out and so I headed out to Hongik for more training. I wanted to test out this new back/chest routine I’ve been thinking off.
10. Q dropped by my house much later in the evening and it was then that I realized I really got to get my act together. For all I know, Gangster Oppa views me as a kid. I found out today that he’s 35 but I think that’s 35 Korean, so he’s really only 34. We’re not so far apart in age but we’re definitely in two different worlds. Ironically enough, Q started to ask me about Gangster Oppa tonight and no sooner did his questions start rolling out his mouth but then Gangster Oppa started sending me text messages.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
What did I just get myself into?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
Women flirt to keep their stock high, men to get somewhere.
-- Mignon McLaughlin
As the story has it, one day I headed to the opposite side of the globe – the Flipside. I arrived in Korea February 16th, 2005 and thought I’d do a year, then leave. I was wrong. I stayed, launched my first company, Flipside Fitness, and then opened Korea's largest boxing club, Hulk's Boxing (now called Hulk's Club).
After 11.5yrs in Korea, I then picked up one day and returned to Toronto, Canada. But then I left again.
Now I live in the Philippines where I am the CEO and head coach of Empowered Clubhouse, the Philippines' first and only boxing clubhouse exclusively just for women. I also am the founder of the Lil' Sistas Project, CEO and designer of Slay Gear and Baa Baa Black Sheep .Ph.
10 comments:
I've noticed that every time you refer to Q, you say things like "he's a really nice guy" or "he does things for me." You never say "this guy I'm crazy about" or "I love him so much." Maybe that's the basis of your problem. If you don't have those feelings for Q, then it's understandable that you keep looking somewhere else.
Anonymous love tips.. From another guy who wants you?! Perhaps!
Its a given "Gangster Oppa" would write you. he just saw you in your undies! Probably made his year!!!
Keep smiling! you might go to the gym and he has told everyone! *grin*
Nope, sorry. Anonymous is a girl. I was just too lazy to sign up my name. I was just pointing out something a girl would notice. If I'm wrong, Amy is free to ignore me, but it's something I've noticed in her posts. Diana
"I found myself daydreaming today about a dude that could probably kill me in public and get away with it because of who he is and what he does… how twisted is that?!"
ok, i'm just a casual reader but i'm glad to know you see the gravity of the situation. lol.
i think in life, when we get into a rut, we look for something to get us out of it. sometimes whatever comes along first--positive or negative--is the thing. you and Q seem like you have a stable relationship that's become fairly predictable.
gangster oppa came along first: edgy, decisive and defiantly unpredictable...the personification of boxing, in fact. perhaps you need another high-risk hobby instead...i personally recommend snowboarding. i hear some korean resorts even have couples slopes. ;)
I think woman and man have a tendency to think that the grass is always greener on the other side. Q makes u happy and he's a "safe" choice. Gangster Oppa is mysterious. Women are often attracted to the unknown. Like Diane said, maybe your just getting bored with your current relationship. But you know you've tried to end it before and found it to be a big mistake. It's okay to be attracted to other people, just not okay to act on those attractions.
Maybe she was bored NOT being in a relationship. Amy may be "with" Q, but she's no longer got a ticker up about him. And her future thinking about Canada includes him, sure, in the transfer her house to him way.
But I'm biased. I've always subscribed to the You Broke Up For a Reason school of thought. And it's never let me down.
Also, I do NOT think the grass is greener on the other side. Whenever I've thought that, it's been time to end it.
It's like my granny always used to say... when yer fella's main positive quality involved the ability to get away with your murder, it's time to check into the loony bin.
And about Q... "yet another woman" is RIGHT on target.
Your relationship with him is SO beyond over.
Hey Everyone,
Sorry I’m always late responding to your comments. They’re much appreciated, always, and so I’ll try to be quicker on my responses!
So… here’s my responses to those who commented on today’s entry.
Dear Anonymous #1 (Diana),
True, I hear what you’re saying and I agree but I don’t even tell my parents I love them and well, I’ve been loving them for 28 years now. I never really noticed it really but I’m just not one of those touchy-feely people when it comes to those three “special” words. You definitely got me thinking though!!!
And don’t worry… I wouldn’t ignore you. Keep the comments and insight coming. Sometimes the situation is better understood from someone outside of the picture … you have a different perspective and that’s awesome. Do tell me what you think.
Hey BoyToy,
I miss you!!!.. and I think YOU want me… hehehe. You’ve known me long enough to know that even when things are good, I have a habit of messing it up. I’ve beginning to think that I’m just meant to be one of those always-single girls.
And as for making Gangster Oppa’s year… I don’t know about that one… you’ve never seen me naked. Maybe I freaked him out… hehehe.
Yo T-Hype,
Cool name by the way!
Hehehe… yes, I agree. I am definitely in a rut.
As for another risky hobby, I was doing scooter racing for a bit and that seemed to fix my need and craving for adventure but then my boxing coach caught me and made me promise I’d never race again. It’s either scooter racing or boxing.. I can’t do both he said.
Hi Annie-Me,
I hear what you’re saying but I’ve never really thought the grass was greener on the other side. I think I’m just missing something in my life and I’m trying to eagerly find it.
Yes, my relationship with Q is predictable and safe, but I think it balances me out cause it’s the only thing that keeps me grounded here and keeps me sane.
I hear ya on the whole not acting on attractions and trust me, that’s exactly why I’ve tried to change my training schedule and whatnot… I don’t want the added temptation. As far as Gangster Oppa’s status, single or whatnot, I’m more concerned with his feelings than mine. I can resist the temptation, after all, almost everyday I train with half naked fit dudes, half of which I’ve repeatedly have seen in their panties. Just not too sure what Gangster Oppa’s intentions really are, whether or not they’re honest or if he’s a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
Hello Yet Another Woman,
It’s ok to be biased… we ALL are!
Trust me, not being in a relationship is definitely NOT boring. I’m sure I could find enough things to preoccupy myself with, like my training and writing my new book. More over, I am “with” Q… hence the reason why I’m desparately trying to avoid Gangster Oppa cornering me at training, his late night calls, and why I haven’t set a leaving date for Korea.
Hey Anonymous,
Tell your granny she’s got some funny advice but I like it… hehehe.
Not too sure what you meant by “And about Q... "yet another woman" is RIGHT on target.” Can you elaborate on that?
And I’d have to disagree with you. My relationship with Q is so NOT beyond over. But thanks for your opinion.
Hey Everyone,
Sorry I’m always late responding to your comments. They’re much appreciated, always, and so I’ll try to be quicker on my responses!
So… here’s my responses to those who commented on today’s entry.
Dear Anonymous #1 (Diana),
True, I hear what you’re saying and I agree but I don’t even tell my parents I love them and well, I’ve been loving them for 28 years now. I never really noticed it really but I’m just not one of those touchy-feely people when it comes to those three “special” words. You definitely got me thinking though!!!
And don’t worry… I wouldn’t ignore you. Keep the comments and insight coming. Sometimes the situation is better understood from someone outside of the picture … you have a different perspective and that’s awesome. Do tell me what you think.
Hey BoyToy,
I miss you!!!.. and I think YOU want me… hehehe. You’ve known me long enough to know that even when things are good, I have a habit of messing it up. I’ve beginning to think that I’m just meant to be one of those always-single girls.
And as for making Gangster Oppa’s year… I don’t know about that one… you’ve never seen me naked. Maybe I freaked him out… hehehe.
Yo T-Hype,
Cool name by the way!
Hehehe… yes, I agree. I am definitely in a rut.
As for another risky hobby, I was doing scooter racing for a bit and that seemed to fix my need and craving for adventure but then my boxing coach caught me and made me promise I’d never race again. It’s either scooter racing or boxing.. I can’t do both he said.
Hi Annie-Me,
I hear what you’re saying but I’ve never really thought the grass was greener on the other side. I think I’m just missing something in my life and I’m trying to eagerly find it.
Yes, my relationship with Q is predictable and safe, but I think it balances me out cause it’s the only thing that keeps me grounded here and keeps me sane.
I hear ya on the whole not acting on attractions and trust me, that’s exactly why I’ve tried to change my training schedule and whatnot… I don’t want the added temptation. As far as Gangster Oppa’s status, single or whatnot, I’m more concerned with his feelings than mine. I can resist the temptation, after all, almost everyday I train with half naked fit dudes, half of which I’ve repeatedly have seen in their panties. Just not too sure what Gangster Oppa’s intentions really are, whether or not they’re honest or if he’s a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
Hello Yet Another Woman,
It’s ok to be biased… we ALL are!
Trust me, not being in a relationship is definitely NOT boring. I’m sure I could find enough things to preoccupy myself with, like my training and writing my new book. More over, I am “with” Q… hence the reason why I’m desparately trying to avoid Gangster Oppa cornering me at training, his late night calls, and why I haven’t set a leaving date for Korea.
Hey Anonymous,
Tell your granny she’s got some funny advice but I like it… hehehe.
Not too sure what you meant by “And about Q... "yet another woman" is RIGHT on target.” Can you elaborate on that?
And I’d have to disagree with you. My relationship with Q is so NOT beyond over. But thanks for your opinion.
Oops...sorry. I got button-happy and posted the same long comment twice... sorry dudes!
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