Anticipating Mother's Day... Saturday, May 12

Tomorrow marks my first motherless Mother’s Day.

I’m not sure if I’m supposed to call my father or what.  Perhaps it’ll just make him sad, me calling on a day that’s designated towards the one lady that’s now no longer here with our family.  Maybe it’ll just upset him more.  I was supposed to head out to Osan tonight but at the realization of what tomorrow is I decided the last thing I wanted to do was be bombarded by random faces.  I kind of just wanted to be left alone so I stayed home and then went for a long run around midnight.  

Upon coming to the end of my run, I ran into one of my boxing teammates.  He was with a couple of the amateur boxers from UP so we all got talking.  Next thing I knew it I was joining them at the park and dishing out all the E-Pop Bars I made today.  I made them for my boxercise girls actually.  They were a huge hit with the guys and well, I couldn’t resist saying no to them when they asked for more.  I’m a sucker for a fun-loving, good-looking Korean man, what can I say.  My teammates mean so much to me and I really love training with them and many of the amateur boxers.  I’m convinced that if they knew how much I totally adore them Junior Mint would seriously have to make double doors for the boxing club, to allow their inflated egos to enter in… hahaha.  Awesome guys!

A friend of mine from high school messaged me the other day.  He’s in Korea on a business trip, so the plan is to meet up in Seoul for the day. I ran into him once briefly during university but it’s basically been 12 years since we’ve really seen each other.  I think it’s pretty cool that after all these years we’ll be running into each on the total opposite side of the globe. 

He’s now married and he married another classmate of mine, a classmate who for many years was also a neighbor who for a long time lived across the street from my family’s house.  Together they have a little daughter and a son on the way.  His wife, my friend/neighbor, will be home alone for Mother’s Day so I figure we’ll go shopping in Insadong for a Mother’s Day gift for her. 

Sometimes I find it funny just how many of my friends are mothers now.  I still feel so young at heart and yet they’ve grown up so much.  They’re not kids having kids but instead are adults having children.  It's pretty cool to see them start their own families and whatnot but I don't think I'll ever follow in their footsteps.  Unlike them who have made their roots deep -- buying a house, having children and establishing careers, I like living not really knowing what tomorrow brings.  I like not knowing where I'm going to live in a month or two, whether that be what home or what country, and I like picking up random work and whatnot.  The whole not knowing attracts me whereas agreeing to a work contract or taking on a house kind of freaks me out. It freaks me out in that it's too restricting to me and makes me feel so tied down.  Getting married was a huge enough commitment for me so I think that's the only commitment I foresee for my life right now.