Highlights of my Day... Saturday, February 14

1. You know how they so often say you should always go with your gut feeling? Well, I did that. I've never been one of those girlfriends who's ever snooped around or questioned a boyfriend's friends for inside info or anything but today I was. Mind you, I only had one question. One simple and innocently enough question I had to ask one person, a common friend, to put my mind at ease. And with that, I found out that my gut instinct was right. I got my answer and instantly I felt like a complete fool. I was right. I wished I was wrong.

2. Got those usual "is she really ok?!" looks by Milk Dud and Panty Boy Jr. at training today. And yes, I am fine. I have to be fine. Even when things aren't OK, they're OK... and I don't expect you to understand but that's OK too.

3. Thankfully I'm not an emotional eater or a big crier. I don't want extra pounds and no one likes a wrinkly 28 year old with a runny nose and blood shot eyes. Me, I'm an emotional sleeper. When I'm upset I tend to take these totally random extended naps whenever and where ever. I guess I figure if I go to sleep than I can escape the reality of it all and hopefully wake up into a fresh new day. A new day full of new possibilities... a day to make-up for the day before... a day to start over. It's rather ironic though considering in any other situation I'd refuse to go to sleep angry.

4. Trained on pad work with Milk Dud today as Junior Mint was away in Seoul for the day. I haven't done pad work with Milk Dud in almost a year, he usually only trains the amateur boxers. It was good though. He's a great trainer but his imprompt dancing in between rounds made it so hard for me to keep my concentration... hahaha.

5. So because my plans of a slaving away for a romantic Valentine's private party were a no-go, I packed my purse with my Korean diary and headed for the subway. Destination: Little America. I figured I'd do my Korean homework on the hour train ride and then visit the cutie at the movie shop for some cheap movies. I also wanted to confirm a hair appointment for tomorrow, for my corn rows... "reggae hair", as Junior Mint calls it... hahaha.

6. What was supposed to be a short in-and-out visit at the movie shop turned into a twenty minute chat with one of the workers and ended with him winking at me and hooking me up with someone to braid my hair. Oh, and I bought some Korean movies too.

7. Felt some what vulnerable and down in the evening, after all, it was Valentine's Day. And although Valentine's Day here in Korea is for the guys and White Day is for the girls, Valentine's Day has always had a high importance to me in regards to ranking holidays. It's up there, right after Thanksgiving. All day two movie tickets sat on my kitchen counter. I had bought them yesterday for Q and I and had been anticipating seeing this movie for quite some time now. I figured I had already kicked any hopes of a good Valentine's Day to the curb but I really didn't want it all go to loss. So I went on a movie date... with myself. Saw the movie "He's Just not that Into You".

8. Right before I left for the movie I got a text from Tang.

"I really wanna come to you but I'm having beer with two guys... but how about a
coffee after the movie?"

And with that I agreed to meet up with him. I don't need to be with someone but on a day like this when you feel like you're seriously going against all odds already, it's nice to know that there is someone, a friend, whom you can confide in. Someone to listen. The movie started at 11:50pm and so we met up at 2am.

9. At the coffee shop Tang laughed and said that he didn't recognize me at first when I left the movie theater. "See... I can look like a girl" I commented... hahaha. We chatted about so much, I can't even remember the specifics but it was fun. It was exactly what I needed.

10. I'm not so much of a night hawk anymore and so rolling on home after 4am is rough for me. But no sooner did I cuddle up to Mi Nam in bed but someone rang my doorbell. It was Q. It was now almost 5am and there I sat with him kneeling at my feet, hands on my knees, saying nothing. He just sat there, starring up at me. He knows... we're at the point now where words can no longer help. Trust and respect, that's what I think are the two key ingredients in a relationship's foundation and when you break the one, the other crumbles with it. A lie can break both simultaneously though and that's exactly what happened. And his attempt to pick up the pieces days later only added insult to injury. I couldn't look at him. I didn't know what to say. So I got up, went to bed, and then he left.

QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Why do people think saying sorry makes up for their mistake?

QUOTE OF THE DAY...
The only correct actions are those that demand no explanation and no apology.
-- Red Auerbach