2. Spontaneously decided to play hide-and-seek and so I hid in my closet. I guess I should have told a certain someone that we were playing a game... don't ask... hahaha.
3. Officially labeled myself the queen of hide-and-go-seek after I managed to contort my body, stuff myself into my small carry-on suitcase, and zip it up... again, don't ask... hahaha.
4. A lot of stupidness went down today, stupidness that I don't really want to talk about but for the sake of keeping my homepage updated, I've agreed to mention it. And yes, I know "stupidness" is not a real word... easy there tiger.
5. Got word that Drama Boy broke up last week with overly-jealous, borderline psycho girlfriend and I fought my urge today to text him "Congrats!". We've all been there, done that, had the brutal relationship that left you thinking "what was I doing?!" afterwards so I guess this is his turn.
6. So much for needing to find a sports massage therapist, turns out I have my own personal masseuse that does house-calls... wicked. Scored a foot massage, a full back and a shoulder massage... sweet. He left me feeling like a total human vegetable, I couldn't move after, but it was so good.
7. After my game last week, I granted myself one week of "sinful eating"... one week of conscious-free indulging in whatever I wanted and whenever I wanted it. I can't say it's been totally sinful though. I ate cream pasta yesterday which isn't so bad but it's a killer to my usual clean eating.
8. Hmm.. let's see, what did I eat that was so out-of-the-norm for me this week:
- Baskin Robin's ice cream (it was large but I had an eating partner help me)9. Tomorrow my week of sinful eating ends and honestly I'm looking forward to it. Tonight I ordered in a small pizza and ate half of it. It was loaded with sweet potato and tasted delish but I felt so bloated afterwards. I know it's kind of sad to say this but eating has kind of lost it's appeal to me. I no longer eat to really enjoy the food but to feed my body. I eat out of necessity and so while most people would be turned off eating the same foods everyday like I do, I really don't mind it. I have a different purpose in mind when I eat. I'm more preoccupied with bettering my body in the long run than the ten minutes or so of satisfaction that comes with the average meal most, and I hate this word, "normal" people eat.
- one vanilla milkshake
- two large size Coffee Bean coffees
- a whole whack of peanut butter
- a chocolate bar (which I ended up dropping half of it)
- a glass of red wine with a plate of cream pasta
- a couple of handfuls of caramel popcorn
10. I'm way too preoccupied with my weight, I know. I blame it partly on the fact that Junior Mint weighs me twice a day, six days a week, but I know I am to blame for it too. I'm not afraid of becoming overweight, it's quite the opposite actually. I'm frustrated. Yes, I am at a point of frustration. Where my body is, where my body should be and where I want my body to be seems to be three different places and it's frustrating. But I promised myself something this year and so regardless of how frustrated I get, I am reminded of the promise I made myself on New Year's Eve.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
High-tech tomatoes, mysterious milk, supersquash... are we supposed to eat this stuff or is it going to eat us?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
My favorite animal is steak.
-- Fran Lebowitz
3 comments:
You know sis, you seem to be so competitive, so willing to fight for it all, and so wanting of everything, sometimes I think you miss a lot. What I mean is, I think you should try to gain a new mentality after all of this boxing. To stop killing yourself to be the best, and start accepting the Amy. There will always be someone stronger, faster, smarter, more beautiful, with more s lines and more abs, but as long as what you have is enough for YOU, that's all you'll need to be happy.
Much much <3
-Bman
Amy I totally respect the hard work you have put into boxing and eating, but I do really really believe that you can eat and enjoy food and do it in moderation and not get fat and not consider it gluttonous. I've traveled all over the world, and food is the one thing I love about every place I've been. People in Italy don't worry about their creamy sauces and fatty meats, the french don't worry about the rich cheeses, baguette of bread and wine they drink, and they are all much thinner than most North Americans. They know how to enjoy their food but eat it in moderation.
needs you staying super thin and fit, but life should be enjoyed and food is to me, part of that enjoyment, especially when done healthily and in small quantities. Life is too short, in my opinion.
And as for the traveling thing, yes you should get out and see a few places before leaving Korea, or you'll regret it. You're so close to so many AMAZING places! Thailand, Hong Kong, China, japan, Malaysia, the list goes on!!
I've traveled alone and with groups and I like them both, but i was never really alone when i did go by myself. SO many people to meet.
I would hate for you to regret not seeing some of these amazing places!!!
Hey Bman,
I know, I know... I tend to get competitive but I love the challange. I need something to shoot for, you know?! I'm not trying to the best, that's impossible, but I'm just trying to be the best I can be.. on my own terms.
Hi Shelley,
Hey girl you need to update your homepage more... hahaha.
I hear ya and I know but sometimes the pressure from those involved in my boxing, whether it's my sponsors, coach or whatnot, is a bit too much so instead of the sudden demand to lose weight or whatever I choose rather to stay alert and ready.
Life is too short... I agree.
And yes, I really do plan on traveling more cause you're right... I'm beside so many amazing places.
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