I've been doing this homepage since Sunday, July 31, 2005 and I've come close several times to ending it but now I think I will definitely do so. My readership is up but blogs are out. And now with me being more in the public eye, and not just in one country's public eye, I'm definitely having to filter out what I do and don't post about.
Keeping up with this homepage is rather tedious.
I write about yesterday's events but sometimes I forget the day's events or what was the real meaningful or eventful part of that day that, in that moment when it actually happened, I was telling myself consciously that I was going to share this on my homepage.
Originally this blog was just for my good friends and family in Canada. It was a means of keeping them in the loop with what I'm doing and it was a means of not feeling so disconnected with them. This was for them but many of "them" don't even read it anymore. Perhaps they never read it in the first place. When my mother passed, I was cleaning out her things in her closet and I came across a massive bender in which she had printed out each of my blog's entries and added them in as another page in her book.
The start of Flipside Fitness.
The launch of Hulk's Boxing.
My fight in Thailand.
Me leaving Korea.
My fight in Mexico.
Me leaving Canada for the Philippines.
...these are all very big events in my life that I really filtered the hell out of here on my homepage. I still only very rarely talk about Snickers but it's because of him I also very rarely talk about Skittles. Up until a couple of years ago, if I had talked about Skittles, I would have risked being put into jail if I were to step foot on Korean soil. There were two reasons why Snickers could have had me arrested, one because of an old skool Korean law that is as stupid as stupid could be and another for my involvement, as limited as it was, regarding a situation that I still to this day have never talked to anyone about to full extent. If you've been reading my homepage for a while, at least the past 4-5 years, you will have read about a situation when I woke up in the middle of the night, back when I lived in an apartment and not Hulk's. I randomly checked in on the security cameras at Hulk's Boxing and what I saw was about a dozen men in my office at the club. I ended up racing to the club and what unfolded from that incident, something that got dragged out for a few weeks and got nasty, got totally filtered out and was kept a secret amongst all those involved.
I think I'll take that secret with me to the grave. My freedom is worth more than the share.
Stories and memories, moments and harsh raw feelings, it all got censored out and now I'm having to up it even more because not only am I running another business but it's a game changer and I'm being a game changer here with my outreach program, my Lil' Sistas. I may have lived a bad life before of hushed secrets and bad people influencing me to make tough choices, one of abuse and loneliness but I don't exactly live that life anymore.
I live a very different life than that which I took on in Korea. One that I rather forget.
Moving forward, I'm contemplating if I should just keep my sharing to those which make me me -- my passion for fitness and health, and my zest to live a healthy, happy life.
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