It's Not Just Four Little Triangles

My thoughts of my string black bikini...

[side note: this was spurred on by the upcoming Hulk's Boxing trip in which I am hoping to pack this along with me and sport... with confidence?!]

This is the look most Koreans favor -- the pencil thin gal and it's the look I don't care to ever, ever sport because I'm now 32, not 10.

 This is how Korea often makes me feel -- thick and masculine.  Many of my Korean friends respect my hard training and like my body but I've noticed it only really gets credit in the gym. 

This is what I'm afraid of looking like in my bikini -- falling out and not tight.  Not that there's anything wrong with this gal body (that's IF she eats right and trains), but as a manager of a boxing club and pro boxer there's definitely certain expectations from me not only from my members and sponsors but from myself.

This gal on the right, this is how Snickers makes me feel in my bikini -- sexy and quite "blessed" up top.  God bless Korean women, before me he's never seen anything larger than that which can be hidden in a knee pad ;)

This is how I'd like to look in my bikini -- cute but toned.  Obvious that I take care of my body.

I got into quite the discussion about my black bikini tonight with one of my members and when he told me "Oh, I'm sure you'll look fine", I interrupted him and said "Fine is NOT what I'm going for."  It's true, I hate the word "fine" just like I hate "ok" and "good".  I want how I look to reflect my status as coach and pro athlete -- I want to be that intimidating body at the gym that people see and think "damn, she works out!!!"