As the story has it, I woke up and found myself on the very opposite side of the globe – the flipside. I arrived February 16th, 2005 and thought I’d simply do a year, then leave. Years later and I’m still here. I went from being some random foreign girl to taking on labels I never imagined – university professor, film extra, professional boxer, group leader for my own girls-only fitness company, Flipside Fitness. And now I run my own boxing club, Korea's largest -- Hulk's Club!!!

Life on the flipside is nothing like I ever thought it would be…!!!


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Thursday, December 01, 2016

Last Night's Gifts Brightened Today

After the event last night, I received a surprise gift -- flowers, a card and a book of letters.
The book of letters were blank actually, because they're meant for me to write them.  
It's a book of letters to my future self.
I was on such a high today from last night and though I don't really believe in horoscopes I do like to read them for their entertainment value.  Today my horoscope (Leo) was dead on.

The Day After... Thursday, December 1

It’s the day after the big event – Agency Wars Alumni Thunder – and I’m still very much running off the high from it all. It was a bittersweet moment, realizing the months upon months of coaching were over.  I woke up today to my cellphone having had been bombarded with text messages from friends commenting about the event and inquiring, and my social media messages were in the triple figures.  The flowers I had received last night after the event were the first reminder i saw regarding last night.. They sat in a vase on my night table, right beside the sweet card that had accompanied them. At the female-only gym today numerous members eagerly asked me about the outcome of the event and repetitively I found myself getting all hyped up and excited talking about it.  "So what what next?" many asked me.

Good question.

Agency Wars isn't totally done yet for me however.  I have to follow up with my Team Blue fighters to make sure they're okay from the fight -- no eye damage, headaches, or whatnot to worry about.  And let's not forget the big team meal out together.  Looking forward to that!

So what is next for me, after it's totally done... it's back to training for me, prepping for my move out of Cabbagetown, getting ready for my temporary move to the Philippines, and prepping for my fight in Asia.  And then of course telling my family all of this.

Tomorrow is going to mark my first official no-coaching free day – the first day I won’t have to go to Clancy’s to train Team Blue. I thought I’d stay home and then jump start my return to intense training on Monday but I have since decided to return to the Fight Club at Cabbagetown Boxing – the female-only sparring club.

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Agency Wars Alumni Thunder at Masonic Temple

My full team here -- Team Blue.
We snapped this pic before weigh-in so the nerves hadn't really settled for my fighters yet.
 Me standing corner side, watching as my fighter goes in to meet the ref and their opponent.
I was such a proud coach.
 The show started off with my smallest fighter.  She had struggled with losing weight and was quite stressed about it but I had given her a fool-proof way to drop weight.  Success!!!
Not only did she kick butt with dropping the needed weight to make weigh-in but she really kicked major butt in her fight.  It made for a very exciting starting fight for tonight's show.
 I was heartbroken when my one fighter's fight got cut short on account of an injury.  He was robbed the chance to really showcase the awesome skills he had developed.  Boy, can he move.  His defence is on par and his counter punches are impressive.  I knew the crowd would be impressed but a cut to his eye meant he didn't get the chance and instead spent his time getting his face stitched up.
I loved coaching tonight and with every mouth guard I took out, every tip and pointer I gave my fighters in the ring, and with every in between moment I had with them, I felt myself falling more in love with my label as their coach.  To tell you the truth though, I don't know what I love more now -- being in the ring as a fighter or being outside of the ring as a coach.  All I know is I couldn't have been more in love with boxing as I was tonight.
Sometimes I think I believe in my fighters' skills and ability more than they do and with this one particular fighter it was evident that this was true.  She had asked in between rounds one and two how I thought she did and added "I didn't do good, sorry".  I told her to be quite and believe in herself.  She went on to win the fight.
This pic was taken right as the ref was raising her hand.  She jumped up and down.  Note my body language.  I stood there proudly listen for the fight call.
 The shocker of the evening for me was this particular fighter.  She's always super intense at sparring, gets flustered easily and is always hard on herself.  But tonight in the fight she was so mentally there.  She had totally composed herself and had mastered controlling her mind.  She was totally there.  It was amazing -- SHE was amazing!!!  
 The last fight of the evening was another win for us but it was the one fight where my boxer had brawled more than boxed.  A win is a win though and I know he had given it his all.
 After the show, with all my excitement over the event still at a peek and me feeling super proud of my team, I headed off to the after party with my team, the Captain and Skittles.

The Big Night was Finally Here... Wednesday, November 30

Weigh-in was at 5pm for my fighters, we arrived at 4. “She” arrived shortly after weigh-in had started. She lingered in the private area downstairs where both Red Team and my team, Team Blue, had gathered to prep and wait for their fight. I was intimidated by her but I’ve met her before so I sat down beside her and made small talk. Right before the show started, she then made her way upstairs. They had given her a VIP table and it was located right in my team’s corner of the ring. Nothing like adding a bit more intimidation. 

Who is she, you ask, she’s the previous years’ coach, one of them, but she wasn’t a coach this past year because she was busy -- busy fighting in the Olympics. How’s that for a good excuse, right?! Right. I’m not intimidated by a lot of people but she intimidates me. She’s a super sweet gal, an incredibly talented boxer whom I admire her for her talent and whom I’ve met before and have ran into few times before. The intimidation stemmed from her being the previous year’s coach and me taking on the role that was once hers. I knew going into Agency Wars Alumni Thunder that I had big shoes to fill, her shoes, and I had just spent the past 12 weeks trying to not only fill them but trying my hardest to bring my own uniqueness and style to coaching my team. Everyone else, including my fighters, had all been through this before. It was my first time though and I didn’t really have anything to go by beyond Clancy’s Boxing expecting me to try my best so that’s exactly what I did. I gave it my all.  "They wouldn't have hired me for the position if they didn't believe I could do it", I reminded myself.

As soon as they called my first fighter up to the ring, I totally lost all that earlier feeling of intimidation and nerves. It was no longer about me and my nerves, it was about my fighter in the ring and me trying my best to coach them. Much later on, after the fights were done and I was home, I saw video of the introduction the announcer had made about me. He had ended his intro of me by telling the crowd that this was the case of Beauty and the Beast except for the fact that I was both. I loved that. I think if I had heard that when it was originally announced to the crowd that would have helped to calm my nerves but none the less I was quite quick to snap out of being nervous to being ultra focused on my team of fighters as soon as I stepped up to that ring to let my fighter step into it. It was now real, the fights were starting, and there was no room in my mental focus to be distraction by my own insecurities. My fighter needed me – they needed my undivided attention.

I think my favourite part of the entire show were those in between round moments I shared with each of my fighters, when I was trying to throw them some tips, some encouragement, and keep their head in the game. They all did so very well but it was heartbreaking to hear the judges give questionable calls on the fights. I tried not to show my disappointment with the judges’ calls because I knew my team was depending on me to keep them all focused and positive. Energy is contagious, both good energy and bad energy, and I didn’t want to set up the next fighter with negative energy going into their fight. That was tough.

I had trained my fighters the best to my ability and various spectators approached me after the show and commended my fighters on being boxers, not brawlers like Team Red, and showing great sportsmanship. After each of their fights I had reminded them to go thank their opponent and the Team Red coach. Only one of the 8 from Team Red acknowledged me in the ring but I stood there waiting for each of them after their fight. At the after party, as I was leaving, the last thing I did was go around and thank each Team Red fighter for the effort and heart they brought into the ring. It had been a fabulous event and I was very proud of all the fighters and those who made tonight happen.  

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Sweet and Sweets

Picked up my shirt at the printers today for tomorrow's big event.
Team Dead Aim -- I bleed blue.  Don't you know it!!!
Also picked up this and more of "these" kinds of things.
Yes, that's right.  Gifts from clients of mine, aka carb temptations!
Carbs are a big no no for me on Keto but they're everywhere!!!

Switching the Overdose... Tuesday, November 29

Day two of going Keto – high fat, moderate protein, low carbs. I’ve been living on high protein for years, it definitely fuels my training, so making the adjustment to moderate protein is a bit rough. I’m the girl that eats about 60 eggs a week and hasn’t owned butter for over a decade and now they’re telling me to cut my protein consumption in half and go buy butter. This is more of a mental challenge than anything, to tell you the truth, and I feel like it’s making a mockery of everything I’ve been told, taught and heard about eating clean and getting lean. The whole “eat clean to get lean” has morphed into “eat dirty to get lean” because I still can’t wrap my head around the notion of eating foods I stayed far away from. I’m talking about foods like bacon, cheese and fatty meats. What was on the “do-not-eat” list before has now been pushed to the “do eat” list.  

Going to the grocery store tonight to stock my shopping cart full of fatty foods was such a trip – such a mental trip that is. I loaded up on a lot of dips, cheese and nuts. I bought butter… wow.  

I’m only on day two.

I’m loving the fact that I can now make cheese and peanut butter my new favourite food friends but I do miss my bananas and oatmeal. 

My macros on Keto:
5% carbs = 20g
20% protein = 80g
75% fat = 133g

This is a MASSIVE shift in my macros because when I was high protein, Paleo, I was 30% carbs, 50% protein and 20% fat. I don’t know what’s harder, digesting that I’m going from 50% protein to only 20% or from 20% fat to a crazy high 75%.

Today I ate the following…
my morning coffee = instant coffee grinds, coconut oil, hazelnut cream, and peanut butter
2 small coconut almond bites (I shouldn’t have eaten these… too much carbs!)
chicken breast chunks mixed together with raw spinach and gaucomole.
omelette = 3 whole eggs with spinach, broccoli, chili powder and soya sauce
1 caramel macchiato protein shake (after training)
5 spoonfuls of natural peanut butter

I feel like instead of overdosing on protein to build muscle I'm overdosing on fat to lose fat.  Sounds rather ironic but let's see if this works.  Today is day two.

Monday, November 28, 2016

Team Training One Last Night

A new week, a new Monday, and a new start to kicking your challenges and working
towards your goals, and today this fierce female jumped right on that.
After coaching my boot camp over at Riverdale, I returned home and had to change because I had to head out for more coaching but this time downtown.  My days have been non stop.  I finally was able to do laundry the other day but didn't quite have enough time to actually put it away.  Balboa seems to appreciate this though.
This past weekend there was a big fitness competition here in Toronto and calendars were handed out.  One of my coworkers at the women only gym I coach at was super sweet in grabbing an extra one for me -- thanks lady. 
 I was flipping through the calendar on route home today and who should I spot but one of my gal pals from System, awesome!  I gave a little scream and hopped in my seat at the sight of her.
In between rushing home from coaching and heading out for my training and then coaching Team Blue, I flopped down on my bed and Balboa leaned over me.  He licked my nose -- a little reminder to me to pause and savor these sweet moments in life.  Life has been happening a full speed lately.
 Spent some time this afternoon writing thank you cards to each of my Team Blue fighters and some other key people who have really assisted the team and me with preparing for fight night.
  Last official training session with Team Blue and they showed up super pumped and positive.
 Ended our last team training session with handing out my thank you cards.
With today being the last training session for Team Blue, I'll be saying hello to free nights and hello to more intense training for myself.  I've decided to pair this particular hello with saying hello to Keto.

Goodbyes Lead to New Hellos... Monday, November 28

Today I said goodbye to Team Blue and carbs…. Ya, let me elaborate on that.

With Wednesday being fight night for Agency Wars Alumni Thunder, tonight was their last team training session and tomorrow will be their pre-fight rest day. It was a bitter sweet situation, coaching them through their last training session, saying bye to them after and knowing that the next time I’ll be seeing them gear up for boxing will be to step into the ring. They’ve come such a long way and I don’t think they really understand the full extent of their progression; it’s amazing. They’ve changed a lot and I too have in so many ways. Perhaps I can’t fully comprehend the extent of my progression like they can’t.

As for me saying goodbye to carbs, I’ve gone Keto. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I already eat clean and I’ve mastered maintaining myself but I don’t want to maintain. I’ve never really wanted to maintain, I’ve wanted to lean out more, but the past 12 weeks have been all about Agency Wars. That’s been my priority so maintaining myself has really been my only fitness goal that I’ve been able to keep up with consequently. But now Agency Wars is almost over. In two days it’s over so I’ll be able to dive back into focusing on my own training and eating. I’ve never been one to wait on getting on something that my mind is preoccupied with though so I started to go keto today. Keto – the ketogenic diet – is a high fat, moderate protein, low card way of eating. [Enter my hate for saying “diet” here. I don’t support dieting, I support healthy eating.] Skittles suggested I do it, to help me switch up my clean eating, and I decided to try it out. I’m all about being a poster child for healthy living and fitness but I’m not interested in becoming the poster child for the word insanity. Part of challenging yourself to change yourself means getting out of your comfort zone. No more oatmeal and bananas for me. From here on out it’s going to be hello healthy fats. I’m already nuts about nuts but now my love for peanut butter is very fitting for this keto adventure, awesome.
I've gone keto.  I'll give it an honest month's try.

Sunday, November 27, 2016

An Amazingly Packed Day... Sunday, November 27

 
There's ALWAYS something special going on at my church but today we celebrated the church's 183th birthday so there was a special ceremony, equipped with choir performances, special dedications and even a dance performance!!!
 Since being in Canada for a bit over a year now, I've accumulated all these phones and even an iPad!  I should note that one phone is missing here -- an iPhone that I lost when I was racing off for my coaching course the other month.  I now have an iPhone 6 but still use my ghetto fabulous Blackberry for my Canadian number.
 Headed off to the Pacific Mall way north of the city.  Skittles took me and Balboa came for the shopping trip.  Tonight's shopping mission: covers for my new phone and new iPad.
Tonight I was treated to a special dinner out by someone incredibly special to me for something super special to me... a celebration meal for two. 
This is what happens when you sit down two athletes for a meal that would be the average person's feast.  We conquered and destroyed that meal, seriously!!!

Best Day of the Week, Hands Down... Sunday, November 27

It's official, Sunday is my favourite day of the week.
 
I kick my Sunday's off with a grueling hill workout at Riverdale, follow through with a beautiful service at my church.  Church is then followed by eating breakfast out and those who know me know how just how much of a lover of breakfast foods I am.  Breakfast out with beautiful company is then followed by a private training session with one of my fabulous female personal training clients at the female-only gym.  The gym is closed on Sundays so my client loves it because we get to blast her Arabic music.  After my PT coaching, I then have the rest of the day off to do whatever and to go wherever with whomever.
 
Today I went to Pacific Mall with Skittles and then headed out for a special celebratory dinner at a restaurant that has become one of my favourites.  I only go there once a month, it's a "C.C" thing... and if you don't know what "C.C." means, don't worry, I'll tell you on a later, more appropriate date.

Saturday, November 26, 2016

One Last Sparring Session

Standing ringside with us leaders of Team Blue -- our team manager, Clancy's head coach, and me.
 Team Blue warming up for their last day of sparring.
The next time they step into the ring to battle it out will be on fight night -- Wed., November 30th.

Almost at the Finish Line... Saturday, November 26

Last day of sparring for Team Blue which meant from here on out not only will they be going light with their training (fight day is Wednesday) but it also meant from here on out I’ll have my Saturdays back. It’s going to be weird, seriously, to have my evenings and Saturdays back. No more rushing from coaching downtown to coaching out in the east end, at Clancy’s. 

No more lugging around my body weight worth of training gear and clothes.

No more packing a day’s worth of food and eating on the go.

No more super tight, no-room-for-error schedule.

I have mastered my schedule, fitting in a billion things to do with commuting to each. I had even scheduled my meals too. It all fit together super snug, like one massive game of Tetrus. There was no room for me to be off. No room for a late bus, for sleeping in, for needing to do an extra load of laundry, and definitely no room to just sit back and relax. It’s been go, go, go since I started Agency Wars Alumni Thunder which means not only for the last ten weeks of training my team but also for the two weeks leading up to picking my team I’ve had quite the tight schedule. But it all ends this Wednesday when they step into the ring. It’ll be a bitter sweet moment of pride and excitement but also sadness because it’ll all be over. Racing off to coach Team Blue has become such a big part of my schedule so to have it come to an end is going to be super strange. What am I going to do with my Saturday afternoons, for example?! Oh right, I’ll probably fill it up with my own training.

Friday, November 25, 2016

A Busy Friday of Boxing

I surprised one of my boxers with writing her ring name on her new handwraps and she totally loved it.  She insisted she Snapchat it so I asked her if I could snap a pic of her snapping a pic... so funny.
This sounded like a good idea.
This smelt like a good idea.
But this was definitely not a good idea!!!
The programs for next Wednesday's much anticipated event have arrived.
 Team Blue all the way!!!  
Spent 7.5 hours here today, at the boxing club, and to think I didn't even get in a workout.
Today I played a minor role in a promo filming they hosted today and then I coached.
In between the filming and me coaching though, I got caught up on Flipside Fitness work.

I Should Have Known This was Bad... Friday, November 25

Note to self: never ever in a billion, trillion, zillion years is it ever a good idea to have a quad shot espresso, regardless of how much you ate, how tired you are or how addicted to coffee you may be. It's just NOT A GOOD IDEA, exclamation mark!!!
 
Today's schedule:
5am                     Wake up
6:10am12pm       Coaching at the female-only gym
1pm-2pm             PT boxing client
2pm                     Race off to Clancy's
3pm--10pm         Clancy's Boxing -- filming promo and coaching Team Blue
10:20pm              Late night dinner out
11:30pm              Arrive at home and continue Flipside Fitness PR work
 
I was up by 5am, out the door by about 5:45am and I didn't get home till after 11:30pm. Didn't go to bed till about 1am. It had been a 20 hour day -- a very long day -- so it was no surprise that I'd cash in another cup of coffee. What I didn't anticipate however was the havoc that one-too-many coffee would have on my body, yikes!!! "Have a quad shot espresso", the Starbucks dude told me when I sarcastically noted I needed jet fuel or something to launch me through the rest of my day. A quad shot, really?!?! That dude should be fired seriously becAuse anything I had eaten leading up to that quad shot and anything after just totally got pushed and flushed through my system. Skittles stepped up to be my hero today. I told I needed to eat something super heavy in carbs; my tummy was grumbling and groaning. He brought back pizza.

Thursday, November 24, 2016

Cabbagetown I Heart You!

 
Cabbagetown is changing.
There's a new condo being built down the street and today I watched as the construction workers adjusted an old house that they'll be moving out of the area.  I suspect another condo will be made in its place.
Even the surrounding area is changing.
This was the sight I arrived to on Monday when I arrived at what I thought was my printer's shop.
Turns out I had the last two numbers of the address wrong but talk about instant panic at the sight of this.
I'm changing too and soon I'll be moving out of Cabbagetown.  It's a bitter sweet move.
I'll miss the people I've met here, like this man walking his pups down the walkway.  He's one of my floor neighbours and those dogs, Dee and Yo, the big German Sheppard Dee is Balboa's crush. 
I may be moving out of Cabbagetown and it may be changing but I will always have much love for this place.  I was thinking about this today and then, when I went to grab a coffee at a local Starbucks, I saw this -- a stocking with my name on it up.  The stocking isn't actually for me, there's a worker I've yet to meet here that sports the same name, but I joked with them and told them I expect to return to it busting at the seems thanks to Santa.

Getting Ready for Bigger Things... Thursday, November 24

The countdown is officially on.  Unofficially disclosed to others beyond the immediate it involves.
 
There's a countdown for Florida and one for the Philippines so I guess I should correct the above sentence and write that the countdowns are officially on -- plural countdowns.  I could, I should, and I would but I won't.  I think it's safe to say the countdown for me heading out to the Philippines for training is the one everyone seems to be concerning themselves about.  I haven't even told my father or my business partner (Snickers) in Korea of the Philippines and, consequently, have decided that until I tell them both I'm not going to let it be known to others.  There's a lot of things to figure out before I release the news and have a zillion and one questions to answer that I can't answer because quite honestly I'm still trying to not only figure it out but digest the big jump I'm about to take. 
 
The other day I sat down and listed to a particular someone make phone calls regarding the Philippines.  The phone was then handed to me and the person on the other line asked me various questions about my boxing and training.  Right now, there are two main people working on getting me set up with training in the Philippines and they're looking to set me up at possibly two different locations, two different gyms.  One is at a higher altitude and I like the idea of the increase in intensity and different challenges it'll pose on my body with respect to breathing and whatnot. 
 
"This is really happening", I told myself. 
 
When I was first approached about this, it was just a light discussion but the phone call to the Philippines made it all seem so real.  I was asked if I was excited and I responded with the same answer I gave when asked about me moving back to Canada -- "I'm as excited as I am scared."

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

Around Town with My Mini Man

 It's definitely winter now so me with my winter coat on and Balboa with his,
 we went to the Eaton Centre today to do errands.
...and then I got flowers.
Okay, so the flowers have nothing to do with my winter coat or the mall
but I did get flowers.  I've been getting a lot of flowers lately, almost weekly actually.

Happy Day to Me... Wednesday, November 23

I got flowers tonight, to mark a special day.

I'm not going to say who they're from or why the day was special.  Those who know know and those that don't, well, I guess they don't really need to know.  It's for me to know and others to guess, if they so please.

No drama and no reading in between the lines.  I'm happy and that's all you need to know.

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Representing in the Great White North

 From Korea to Canada, from Grizzly Bere to Dead Aim...
Flipside Fitness has followed me.  It was the Flip in Korea and now it's the Flip in North.

Getting Ready for the Pop... Tuesday, November 22

I am the co-owner of Hulk’s Club in Korea and the CEO of Flipside Fitness. I originally had launched Flipside Fitness in Korea (The Flip in Korea) back in 2012 and it became so successful that the next logical step to take its success was to build its own training facility – Hulk’s Boxing, now known as Hulk’s Club. When we opened the door of Hulk’s, the next step was to fizzle out Flipside because now I had a full boxing club full of both male and female clients. They were my focus now, both the men and women at my club, and not just the women like before. 

Then, when I moved here to Canada, I was leaning on restarting Flipside Fitness, was hesitant about it, but that’s what I ended up doing. I launched Flipside Fitness here in Canada – The Flip in North. We’ve yet to do any kind of social events but I’ve been hosting boot camps in Riverdale Park and High Park. 

Now I want to take it to the next level, go beyond Flipside Fitness. I want to launch my Second Dream. Flipside Fitness is to my success here in Canada as it was in Korea – just a stepping stone, a leeway into the bigger picture at play in my head. I received some awesome rough draft work from an ad agency that’s been working to help brand my new company, my Second Dream, and it looked awesome. It was today's dose of inspiration. I'm super excited about it.

Monday, November 21, 2016

Pushing It to the Max

My current schedule on the left and my schedule as it soon will be come a week and a half.
 My second last Monday night of coaching here.  I'm still pushing them strong and they're still totally training strong.  Proud of them.

Winding Down... Monday, November 21

Woke up to the wind howling so loud outside my window and frowned at the thought of having to trek it over to Riverdale Park for my Flipside Fitness boot camp.  Today only one of my girls was signed up so I had anticipated turning it into a training session for me to also participate in.  I geared up and left my apartment but as the elevator reached the first floor in my building, I got a text message.  It was from my Flipside girl, asking me if training was still on despite the bad early morning weather.  I texted her back, “it’s your call”, and then she decided to call it off.  Headed back upstairs to my place and crawled back into bed. 

 In a little over a week my Team Blue will be stepping into the ring but with a little over a week of coaching them left and having had already coached them for 9 weeks, today’s unexpected training cancellation was a sweet surprise to my morning.  I haven’t had too many days where I can sleep in or have extra time on my hands.  Sleep is at a minimum, eating is at an all time high because of how much I’m juggling, and my training has become somewhat put on the backburner.  I’m not complaining, I signed up for this, but it’ll be nice to go back to being able to focus more so on my boxing.  I’m looking forward to resuming my Saturday afternoon training sessions at System, my Monday night training at Clancy’s with the fighters I’ve watched train for the couple of months as oppose to train with.  I miss training with them, I really do.  The busiest of my days start at 5am and end at 11:30pm but 11:30pm is only when I get home.  Of course there’s prepping food for the next day, trying to squeeze in laundry, walking Balboa, and then trying to wind down.  There’s been no wind down for me.  There’s been being on and being off – waking up and then passing out from exhaustion after a long, non-stop day.  I look forward to wind down time, some down time.

Sunday, November 20, 2016

Staying Inspired, Focused and Determined

We all define ourselves differently and labelling myself as "average" or "normal" was never a goal
of mine.  I want to be so much more than I already am so to not pursue my potential
and aim to stretch it would be such a personal disappointment. 
My first reaction when I saw this particular quote was to laugh because back when I was creating Hulk's, eating physical food had gone from being a necessity to a luxury.  It was either feed my construction workers or feed myself.  I fed them and lived off whatever food and coffee friends brought.  I fed off the drive to make my dream come true.
Oh I'm going to get it.  Still dealing with a bit of sensory overload with how to go about it but it's definitely in the works and every day I'm closure than I was the day before.
This is going to happen... just waiting for the pop.