It's a book of letters to my future self.
As the story has it, I woke up and found myself on the very opposite side of the globe – the flipside. I arrived February 16th, 2005 and thought I’d simply do a year, then leave. Years later and I’m still here. I went from being some random foreign girl to taking on labels I never imagined – university professor, film extra, professional boxer, group leader for my own girls-only fitness company, Flipside Fitness. And now I run my own boxing club, Korea's largest -- Hulk's Club!!!
Life on the flipside is nothing like I ever thought it would be…!!!
Thursday, December 01, 2016
It's a book of letters to my future self.
Wednesday, November 30, 2016
Who is she, you ask, she’s the previous years’ coach, one of them, but she wasn’t a coach this past year because she was busy -- busy fighting in the Olympics. How’s that for a good excuse, right?! Right. I’m not intimidated by a lot of people but she intimidates me. She’s a super sweet gal, an incredibly talented boxer whom I admire her for her talent and whom I’ve met before and have ran into few times before. The intimidation stemmed from her being the previous year’s coach and me taking on the role that was once hers. I knew going into Agency Wars Alumni Thunder that I had big shoes to fill, her shoes, and I had just spent the past 12 weeks trying to not only fill them but trying my hardest to bring my own uniqueness and style to coaching my team. Everyone else, including my fighters, had all been through this before. It was my first time though and I didn’t really have anything to go by beyond Clancy’s Boxing expecting me to try my best so that’s exactly what I did. I gave it my all. "They wouldn't have hired me for the position if they didn't believe I could do it", I reminded myself.
As soon as they called my first fighter up to the ring, I totally lost all that earlier feeling of intimidation and nerves. It was no longer about me and my nerves, it was about my fighter in the ring and me trying my best to coach them. Much later on, after the fights were done and I was home, I saw video of the introduction the announcer had made about me. He had ended his intro of me by telling the crowd that this was the case of Beauty and the Beast except for the fact that I was both. I loved that. I think if I had heard that when it was originally announced to the crowd that would have helped to calm my nerves but none the less I was quite quick to snap out of being nervous to being ultra focused on my team of fighters as soon as I stepped up to that ring to let my fighter step into it. It was now real, the fights were starting, and there was no room in my mental focus to be distraction by my own insecurities. My fighter needed me – they needed my undivided attention.
I think my favourite part of the entire show were those in between round moments I shared with each of my fighters, when I was trying to throw them some tips, some encouragement, and keep their head in the game. They all did so very well but it was heartbreaking to hear the judges give questionable calls on the fights. I tried not to show my disappointment with the judges’ calls because I knew my team was depending on me to keep them all focused and positive. Energy is contagious, both good energy and bad energy, and I didn’t want to set up the next fighter with negative energy going into their fight. That was tough.
I had trained my fighters the best to my ability and various spectators approached me after the show and commended my fighters on being boxers, not brawlers like Team Red, and showing great sportsmanship. After each of their fights I had reminded them to go thank their opponent and the Team Red coach. Only one of the 8 from Team Red acknowledged me in the ring but I stood there waiting for each of them after their fight. At the after party, as I was leaving, the last thing I did was go around and thank each Team Red fighter for the effort and heart they brought into the ring. It had been a fabulous event and I was very proud of all the fighters and those who made tonight happen.
Tuesday, November 29, 2016
Going to the grocery store tonight to stock my shopping cart full of fatty foods was such a trip – such a mental trip that is. I loaded up on a lot of dips, cheese and nuts. I bought butter… wow.
I’m only on day two.
I’m loving the fact that I can now make cheese and peanut butter my new favourite food friends but I do miss my bananas and oatmeal.
My macros on Keto:
5% carbs = 20g
20% protein = 80g
75% fat = 133g
This is a MASSIVE shift in my macros because when I was high protein, Paleo, I was 30% carbs, 50% protein and 20% fat. I don’t know what’s harder, digesting that I’m going from 50% protein to only 20% or from 20% fat to a crazy high 75%.
Today I ate the following…
my morning coffee = instant coffee grinds, coconut oil, hazelnut cream, and peanut butter
2 small coconut almond bites (I shouldn’t have eaten these… too much carbs!)
chicken breast chunks mixed together with raw spinach and gaucomole.
omelette = 3 whole eggs with spinach, broccoli, chili powder and soya sauce
1 caramel macchiato protein shake (after training)
5 spoonfuls of natural peanut butter
I feel like instead of overdosing on protein to build muscle I'm overdosing on fat to lose fat. Sounds rather ironic but let's see if this works. Today is day two.
Monday, November 28, 2016
With Wednesday being fight night for Agency Wars Alumni Thunder, tonight was their last team training session and tomorrow will be their pre-fight rest day. It was a bitter sweet situation, coaching them through their last training session, saying bye to them after and knowing that the next time I’ll be seeing them gear up for boxing will be to step into the ring. They’ve come such a long way and I don’t think they really understand the full extent of their progression; it’s amazing. They’ve changed a lot and I too have in so many ways. Perhaps I can’t fully comprehend the extent of my progression like they can’t.
As for me saying goodbye to carbs, I’ve gone Keto. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I already eat clean and I’ve mastered maintaining myself but I don’t want to maintain. I’ve never really wanted to maintain, I’ve wanted to lean out more, but the past 12 weeks have been all about Agency Wars. That’s been my priority so maintaining myself has really been my only fitness goal that I’ve been able to keep up with consequently. But now Agency Wars is almost over. In two days it’s over so I’ll be able to dive back into focusing on my own training and eating. I’ve never been one to wait on getting on something that my mind is preoccupied with though so I started to go keto today. Keto – the ketogenic diet – is a high fat, moderate protein, low card way of eating. [Enter my hate for saying “diet” here. I don’t support dieting, I support healthy eating.] Skittles suggested I do it, to help me switch up my clean eating, and I decided to try it out. I’m all about being a poster child for healthy living and fitness but I’m not interested in becoming the poster child for the word insanity. Part of challenging yourself to change yourself means getting out of your comfort zone. No more oatmeal and bananas for me. From here on out it’s going to be hello healthy fats. I’m already nuts about nuts but now my love for peanut butter is very fitting for this keto adventure, awesome.
Sunday, November 27, 2016
Saturday, November 26, 2016
No more lugging around my body weight worth of training gear and clothes.
No more packing a day’s worth of food and eating on the go.
No more super tight, no-room-for-error schedule.
I have mastered my schedule, fitting in a billion things to do with commuting to each. I had even scheduled my meals too. It all fit together super snug, like one massive game of Tetrus. There was no room for me to be off. No room for a late bus, for sleeping in, for needing to do an extra load of laundry, and definitely no room to just sit back and relax. It’s been go, go, go since I started Agency Wars Alumni Thunder which means not only for the last ten weeks of training my team but also for the two weeks leading up to picking my team I’ve had quite the tight schedule. But it all ends this Wednesday when they step into the ring. It’ll be a bitter sweet moment of pride and excitement but also sadness because it’ll all be over. Racing off to coach Team Blue has become such a big part of my schedule so to have it come to an end is going to be super strange. What am I going to do with my Saturday afternoons, for example?! Oh right, I’ll probably fill it up with my own training.
Friday, November 25, 2016
Thursday, November 24, 2016
Wednesday, November 23, 2016
Tuesday, November 22, 2016
Monday, November 21, 2016
In a little over a week my Team Blue will be stepping into the ring but with a little over a week of coaching them left and having had already coached them for 9 weeks, today’s unexpected training cancellation was a sweet surprise to my morning. I haven’t had too many days where I can sleep in or have extra time on my hands. Sleep is at a minimum, eating is at an all time high because of how much I’m juggling, and my training has become somewhat put on the backburner. I’m not complaining, I signed up for this, but it’ll be nice to go back to being able to focus more so on my boxing. I’m looking forward to resuming my Saturday afternoon training sessions at System, my Monday night training at Clancy’s with the fighters I’ve watched train for the couple of months as oppose to train with. I miss training with them, I really do. The busiest of my days start at 5am and end at 11:30pm but 11:30pm is only when I get home. Of course there’s prepping food for the next day, trying to squeeze in laundry, walking Balboa, and then trying to wind down. There’s been no wind down for me. There’s been being on and being off – waking up and then passing out from exhaustion after a long, non-stop day. I look forward to wind down time, some down time.