Just One of "Those" Days... Wednesday, July 24

You ever one of those days when you just need to be alone -- not a want but a need?!  Today was my day.

I thought I'd stay somewhat out of sight by working on my Flipside Fitness magazine in the office at Hulk's but I lack concentration.  My mind was just overly distracted.  I just couldn't focus.  I couldn't focus on my magazine writings or even on training.  I just needed to get out of all the noise of the club and the people.  I had disected and over analyzed the fact that many Korean members didn't show up way too much, I know that, but now it was the day after and I was still very much sensitive to it.

At 5pm I decided I was going to go home -- pulled a "personal day" -- and told Snickers I had a headache.  I didn't really have a headache, I was just in a really weird mood and I wanted nothing more than to be left alone in silence.

I was just in a strange and derranged funk of a mood and I couldn't shake it.

I've been spreading myself in every which way for as long as I can remember now and it's not like I've snapped or anything, oh gosh no, it's just I am mentally exhausted from stretching so far for everyone, trying to hold everything together and make things work.  Snickers says I push myself too far and worry too much but I argue that it's because I worry that these things do work out.  I can't say I'm overly stressed, I absolutely love what I'm doing, but I can definitely admit to having a head jam packed full of pondering thoughts and ideas regarding our business.  The wheels in my head just never stop and my job has consumed me but it's because I've let it.  Nothing like waking up to do what you love but today was definitely one of those days when I just needed to do anything but be swallowed up by it.

Arrived home to my four-legged babies and together the four of us laid on the floor listening to nothing but our own breathing and the downtown noise from outside our windows -- it was perfect.  I did absolutely nothing... for four hours I did nothing actually.  The TV stayed off as did my computer and cell phone.  I didn't even wake up to answer the door when the delivery man came with my parcel.

Those who know me know that you can't really keep me away from the boxing club, heck even on my days off I drop by the club.  I haven't had a day away from the club ever since we signed the papers for the place.  I've visited our club building every day since day one.  So me away from the club for a full day?!  Not going to happen.  After several hours of on-the-floor cuddle time with my four-legged sweeties, I jumped on my scooter and arrived back at the club.