Refocusing Myself... Sunday, March 16

While some of my friends were on the ocean fishing, others were mourning the lost of another.  I was neither on the ocean like I should have and could have been nor out mourning our friend like I would have been.  Instead, I was out on Dankook campus, mourning the lost of the winter chill.  I was battling the heat, dropping weight and running in the midday sun.  I swear every guy and their girlfriend and entire family were out on the Dankook lake path, holding hands and posing as quite the obstacle course for my running. 

I wanted to aim for a long run but it was unrealistic thinking -- I was wearing winter training clothes in what felt like summer weather and the coffee I couldn't resist and had drank earlier had worked as a super laxative and had totally flushed away my breakfast.  The mounds of people on the path served to frustrate me and break my focus because there were just so many of them and I envied them.  My husband was still away and I wanted him here -- I wanted to be one of those annoyingly slow-walking couples, holding hands, laughing in the sun and enjoying each other.  Instead, I was busting my butt and had no idea when Snickers would be back. 

While out running, I simply lost all motivation and focus on my half marathon training.  I'm thinking about winging this upcoming race and by winging it I mean simply stick to my regular running, skip doing any marathon-specific training like pace work and keep my focus on my boxing.  I'm not a professional runner, I wanted to be one back when I was in high school but I'm not one.  I am a professional boxer and up until being asked about this particular Japan fight, I didn't realize just how preoccupied I had become with my running.  I am still very disappointed that this year's Cheonan Sanglok Marathon has no actual full marathon.  I had started training for a full but once word got out that there was no full course, in my head something just clicked.  My motivation to continue training so hard took a nose dive.  I've done a half marathon before, I've done three now with this April being my fourth.  I suppose I could aim to beat my personal best time but I'm happy with my personal best and not particularly interested in beating it, just disinterested really.  

I decided to only do one lap around the lake then head back home.  It was a short run but a fast one and no sooner did I arrive home but then I headed over to Hulk's.  Spent a good chunk of time focusing on some combos with shadow boxing, pounding away at the sandbags, and skipping like a mad woman -- doing what a boxer does.  I am a boxer, not a professional runner, and I've decided that this upcoming half marathon will simply be some extra Sunday morning training, an accessory to my boxing, and not my focus.