I am once again legal in the country, nice. I had to go and renew my visa today and thank God it's just a stone throw away from my condo. I was given the choice to renew it for one month, two months, or six months. I chose two months on account if I don't know if I'll actually be able to go pop into Korea to grab some of my stuff and deal with "business" there or if I'll be visiting Canada this summer. It also depends on what's going on with the Clubhouse -- when I'll be able to start work on it and officially launch it.
No word yet regarding House B.
I was suppose to get word from them last night.
The nerves are on end and I'm trying not to put any negative thoughts into the universe but it's hard to stay positive at this point when I'm in the dark, just waiting for an answer.
In waiting for the answer on House B, I'm really jeapordizing my hold on the Reno House.
I just want to start this already.
Skittles asked me randomly tonight if I pray and I told him "yes, I pray". He then asked me what I pray about and suggested I should pray about House B. I do pray, yes, that's true, but I don't pray to God to ask him for things. Correction, I don't ask him for things that I can figure out on my own or do on my own. For example, I don't pray for more clients. Instead, I go out and hustle for more clients and look, now I'm fully booked. Things I do pray for are things I'm grateful for. I go to bed listing off things I'm grateful for; I thank him, that's my evening prayer. And I pray for my dogs, for both the two here in the Philippines and for those in Korea, because they can't look after themselves and they're innocent and vulnerable. I pray that Cassius will fully develop, which he hasn't and so now he has to have surgery. I don't pray for the money for that surgery because, again, I can hustle and work hard for that, but I do pray that he will be safe during his surgery and recover quickly because that's something that is so beyond my control.
I don't pray to God for things I can control or I can do.
I can hustle, I can stay positive, and I can work hard.
I don't pray to God for things I can control or I can do myself because that's why he's given me the Polish stubborn gene and Austrian determination and focus. He's given me the tools and I've expanded upon them. I just thank him and then ask him to protect and look after those that I can't fully, like my dogs.
Laugh as you may, that's okay, I've been doing very well hustling for myself and figuring it out on my own. I think to ask God for something that you can and you should be doing yourself is kind of like playing the lazy card in a way and I know many are going to argue with me on that. I'm fine with that too. I mean, there's got to be a point to God giving you all these characteristics and skills, it's to use them. It's not to put them aside and ask him to do all the work. That's not fair. And while people may argue that perhaps God wants you to ask him for things, "like a father wants their child to ask of them", I wasn't raised to ask my father for things as such.
Everyone has their own opinion, this is mine.
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