Today would have, could have and should have been my last shift at PBB but it wasn't and I thought of that when 2:30pm rolled around. That's when my last class would have started. And I thought of it too when I went grocery shopping and found myself prioritizing my groceries because consequently I'm tight on money. I lost half my sponsorship over a month ago because my former coach couldn't get me a fight and my training wasn't up to par with what I should have been receiving from him. He was well aware that money was super tight for me too and that I needed that last paycheck.
Peanut butter or a bag of brown rice? I love peanut butter but the rice is a good, solid starchy carb and right now it's needs over wants. The rice won.
I stood there with that jar of natural peanut butter in my hand and got mad. I would have made another paycheck this week at PBB and I would have been able to buy this peanut butter. Is peanut butter really a luxury in my life? Right now yes. And with that realization I stuck my arm out with that jar in my hand, slammed it on the ground and walked away with fellow shoppers all starring me. You think I honestly cared that I looked like a terrible-two throwing a public tantrum?! H-E-double-hockey-sticks no. Helll no.
I left the grocery store feeling somewhat defeated and upset. My groceries had consisted of the bare necessities: spinach, broccoli, apples, brown rice, and eggs. I still have some groceries in my fridge from earlier this week, like sweet potatoes, tomatoes, onions, and some meat, but ohhhhh if money wasn't an issue I would have bought so much more. I walked home thinking about this too, what things I really would like to buy. I'm a pretty simple person. I'm not materialistic and I don't really care to spend more than I have to but there are some things I would have bought with that extra paycheck.
My Wish List:
Whey Protein Splash powder
BCAA power
Calcium pills
Natural peanut butter
Bananas
Mixed nuts
Flaxseed bread
Aparagus
Beef steaks
Ground coffee
Coffee creamer
Ankle socks for training
Vaseline for my new headgear
New heels for church
Dry cleaning for my winter coat
Hair appointment (to get my hair redyed and highlighted)
Money is tight and times are tough but I'm good. I don't talk about money being so tight because I want pity, gosh no. I'm happily in a tough spot right now because I know I can get myself out of it. Tough times make tough people and I look at this as a challenge. Starting April I'll be showing up at the doorstep of my personal training client and yelling at her to drop and give me 10 like I'm some kind of drill sergeant. I may not have a regular paycheck like most people but I also don't have a boring, 9-5 job like most either and I'll take my lack of paycheck any day over their boring job. I do what I love and love what I do and that outweighs most people's paycheck... that doesn't mean I don't mind if they share their paycheck with me though... hahaha. No, but seriously, life's situations are all in how you perceive them and while one person may feel sorry for me, I view it as a challenge and I love challenges. I knew there would be challenges I'd face with going full time with my boxing but I also knew there'd be great challenges with coming here to Canada. I've attacked and conquered so many already and I'm not about to stop.
BRING IT ON!!!
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