As the story has it, one day I headed to the opposite side of the globe – the Flipside. I arrived in Korea on February 16th, 2005 and thought I’d do a year, then leave. I went from being some random foreign girl to taking on labels I never imagined – university professor, film extra, professional boxer, reality TV star, CEO of my own girls-only fitness company (Flipside Fitness), CEO of my own boxing club (Hulk's Club, formerly known as Hulk's Boxing), and now I'm launching my 3rd business -- Empowered Clubhouse.

After 11.5yrs in Korea, I then picked up one day and returned to Toronto, Canada. But then I left again. This time it was for the Philippines. That's where I am now, living in the land of the happy people. The struggles are real and the struggles are many but I'm living life on my terms, I'm calling the shots, and I'm doing what I love. Life is an amazing adventure and this is my story of yesterday.

Thursday, August 04, 2016

Pondering the Year... Thursday, August 4

In two days I'm turning 36.

In one day I will have been in Canada for a full year.

I'm excited about turning 36 --- 36 on the 6th in the 6ix -- but I'm nervous about celebrating my one year here.  "Celebrating", interesting word.  Interesting in the fact that I don't know if that's the word I would particularly pick.  

What have I done in Canada in a full year to vouch for leaving my life in Korea?! Exactly. Some days I wonder too.  I'm filled with anxiety when I think of it but in a discussion with J-Doll today he said something very interesting that made me re-evaluate how I think of things.  He said it the other day too, in a text message.  He told me to stop comparing Korea to Canada because of the simple fact that the two aren't the same and so I can't expect the same.  

Earlier on, before my chat with J-Doll, I met with one of my friends from Korea, a friend that I had actually trained at Hulk's.  He's on vacation, traveling around for two months before he heads back to Korea. It was wild to meet up with here in Toronto.  It was his first time being to Toronto.  He's American but in a way we're both kind of internationally homeless, I feel moreso me though, because we've lived overseas for so long, we don't really connect entirely with one particular country and we have Koreanized so much.  I've Koreanized in ways that I'm still discovering, a year after even leaving Korea.  I don't feel Canadian but I don't feel Korean either.  I feel somewhere in the middle -- internationally homeless.  

It was nice to see him, definitely nice, because he is a friend and I knew he could somewhat relate to me feeling like a tourist in the country I'm originally from.  Seeing him made me feel not as alone here even if it were just for the short time he was visiting me and sipping on his coffee.  

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