Why didn't I fight for my half of Hulk's?! That's not an easy question to answer.
The main reason why I didn't fight for Hulk's is because what Hulk's was to me and what it is to those who have attached themselves to it, my Hulkies and Mini Hulkies. I knew Snickers would never be able to pay me out; he'd close the doors to do so. Hulk's was my dream, not his, so I know he wouldn't have fought for it. He would have let it die. I fought for Hulk's but for him to continue it. People don't know this but it's true. About a year ago he offered it 100% to me but the condition was I'd have to return. I'd return, take it over, own it 100%, and he'd leave. I didn't want to return though, I couldn't return. I had stayed there too long and I knew if I went back I'd get totally lost. I'd die there.
Hulk's was my baby. I loved that place so much. I was okay leaving Korea and I was okay leaving my marriage, giving it all up, but the one thing that held me back for about a year was coming to terms with leaving Hulk's, wrapping my head around the fact that I had created my dream-come-true and would have to give it up to save myself.
This all weighed heavy on me today and I cried over it as I walked home from boxing.
I should be walking home from MY OWN boxing club, my Empowered Clubhouse, not from someone else's place. I think of that every day I train just like I think about what I'd be doing if Empowered was up and running. As I walked home, up ahead of me, to my left, was the Telus building where I'm trying to launch Empowered. I walked so fixated on it, so much so that I actually walked right off the curb and almost into a parked jeepney... a jeepney!!! A jeepney isn't definitely not a small vehicle, it's a 10+ SEATER TRUCK!!! But I was just so focused on that building and my frustrations had me so completely distracted. I was like a horse with blinders on.
The struggles are real, as real as the frustrations at this point.
I have the equivalency of blue balls for an entrepreneur.... shiiiiiit.