My Heart Goes To Them... Sunday, January 20

Coaching 86 Lil' Sistas is hard but you know what's harder, knowing they all deserve so much more than the heartaches they've been put through. 

I love coaching the Lil' Sistas. It's exhausting but it's something I love to do and it's probably the one of the only things I do that I can say I am honestly totally there, totally present and in the now with undivided attention when I'm doing it. I'm my happiest when I'm coaching them but I also find I'm my saddest an hour or two once I leave them and return home.  It's when I get home, in the silence of my own condo, that I start to think about everything and question everything.

Did I give them a worth-wide boxing class?

Did I do my best for them?

Am I doing all I really can for them?

Is there more I could be doing?

Is my class and involvement with them really helping them?

If it's helping them, how so?

I really wish I could do more for these children, these Lil' Sistas.

Places like Holy Family Home and the Center of Hope MUST stay open.  There is definitely a need for them in the Philippines and they're doing amazing things for these girls but they run on donations and that's hard.  The stress of having to feed 50 children at the Center of Hope alone is quite the burden.  And then of course there is the cost of paying all the staff (and feeding them too).  It's a lot.  And the same goes for the Holy Family Home.  These places are ran by a crew of staff who clearly has a heart for these children and what they're doing is amazing, but I yearn to be a bigger part in all of this.  I really want to utilise my boxing classes as a means of bringing a sense of awareness and future donations to their purpose.  

I've never wanted my own child but I'm also not for children being robbed their childhood and be put in situations like being forced to beg on the street or be forced to do prostitution or pornography.   And the more and more I coach these Lil' Sistas, the more and more I find myself growingly attached to them and wanting to push them even further in life.  I can so see myself adopting one of them, not one in particular but definitely adopting one.  They deserve a real family, all of them, and while the Center of Hope and Holy Family Home are giving these girls as much love as they can and have made it their mission to aid these girls in every and any way they can, you can't replace family and what it provides for a proper foundation.

I was asked the other week if money wasn't an issue, what would I do and I answered I'd get these kids off the streets and build them the coolest boxing club ever, where they would train for free and stay for however long they wanted.