Honestly, I'm not too sure why I've maintained this homepage as long as I have. Originally it was created for my friends and family in Canada to stay in touch with me and get a glimpse of my life but now it's so incredibly screened and censored. I don't know who really reads this homepage but I know many of those it was intended for don't even know I've kept up with it. It's been well over 14 years now since I've started it, probably longer actually.
I get random private messages from random people reading it.
My mom used to be my biggest reader and I found this out when cleaning out her closet after her death. I came across a couple of binders and inside it was a page for every posting I had ever posted online. I knew she had read my homepage but I didn't know to that extent and I definitely had no idea she was printing all my posts. My mom no longer reads my homepage, obviously, that is unless they have wifi in Heaven. My dad surely doesn't read my homepage and I'm pretty sure neither do my two brothers.
Yes, I have two brothers. One that I really haven't talked to since my mother's death and the other I also rarely talk to also because he's not really on social media. He's busy with work and his own little family he's created.
So why the homepage, still? I don't know.
Sometimes, like today, it's just a medium for me to random on about this and that.
I always am careful to screen things though, using nicknames for people and omitting others.
My life in the Philippines has become somewhat like my life in Korea -- monitored and watched. Whether it's sponsors here or sponsors and certain people back in Korea watching me, I don't have privacy like I used to, especially now that my company has a physical space. Honestly, if I didn't have my business and wasn't the face of my brand, I would never use Instagram or YouTube. But I have a company and I'm a one-woman startup business who is also a pro athlete. I'm not out there in the public eye like perhaps I should, could or would be for my business so I make my presence strong on social media.
Now days everyone is online. I make sure that my business and my face is too.
Having said this though, things that I would like to write about on my homepage, something that was suppose to be like an online personal diary, I can no longer. I learnt the hard way when I did a reality show in Korea that editing can be mean and once you throw something out there on social media, it sticks whether or not people interpret it the way you intended it to be or not.
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