Coming to the end of what has been a busy week slump. I can cross this past week off as being totally NOT productive because it really hasn't. I've been working at full speed and really hustling to move things forward but it's been hard.
Whoever said life isn't a race, it's a marathon, has clearly never been an entrepreneur.
Life as an entrepreneur is a relay race.
It's a relay race for us entrepreneurs because no matter how hard or how much you hustle and work countless hours, as soon as you pass on that baton, it's no longer in your control. Now you have to hope and pray that they are up to speed with your hustle. Take for example my boxing gear supplier in Pakistan, the one I'm now only keeping on for hand wraps and have since hired a manufacturer in China to produce my gloves. I slaved over my designs and got them done, made the order, and now it's up to him to make the order. He messed up my past order, an order than I've been waiting two months for him to correct.
Yes,... two months. And now you know why I've hired another manufacturer to deal with my gloves.
One word, ridiculous.
This past week I've been feeling mentally spent, at my limit, and ultimate frustration.
- Frustration with killing myself at boxing only to still not have a fight.
- Frustration with training with the Lady Volcanoes when I know I'm not at their level. I constantly question why I was even offered the chance to train with them. I can't even go with them for the Olympic qualifiers even if I was at their level because I haven't been in the country for 3 years.
- Frustration with some of my fighters not being focused and feeling their frustrations with not getting results when they I both know why this is the case.
- Frustration with having to get a plane ticket to Canada when I don't have the cash to do so.
- Frustration with still having those stupid wood skids on my balcony and still no workers set for it.
- Frustration with trying to push the Lil' Sistas Project forward but waiting for consent on things.
- Frustration with people thinking I must make crazy money and have tons of extra time.
- Frustration with still not having an assistant to help me with all the background work.
- Frustration with complications launching Baa Baa Black Sheep.
- Frustration with all the unknown territory I'm in with Baa Baa Black Sheep.
- Frustration with not having had a grand opening party for Empowered.
- Frustration with simply not being able to disconnect from work and just relax.
- Frustration with not having a close group of friends here even if I wanted to relax.
- Frustration with Balboa and Cassius still not being able to be together in one room.
Frustration with working so hard only to feel I'm simply maintaining things and not moving forward.
In December I'll be visiting family and friends in Canada and though I do believe that I have lots to show for the three years I've been here, it's not up to par with what I want to show them. It's maybe half.
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