I've got the magic touch baby... turning her frown upside down was not a problem... hehehe.Thursday, May 31, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Thursday, May 31
1. While having coffee with Mari, we got into quite the discussion that lead us to the issue of prostitution in Korea. I had mentioned that I can't stand Itaewon cause it's like a little America and I can't stand all the young dudes there who pounce on us girls like white on rice. Anyway, she had asked me if I knew "Hooker Hill", well, anyone who knows Itaewon knows Hooker Hill. It's not exactly hidden and Itaewon is notoriously known for it actually. The "working girls" stand there in the doorways of their little "shops", if you want to call them that, and they call out to the guys passing by.
2. I thought the conversation was rather intense and so I thought I'd lighten it up with sarcastically asking, "How come they don't have guys working on Hooker Hill?" It was definitely a rhetorical question cause I don't promote prostitution, have never supported it, nor am I hard up for skin. I may be single but I'm not desperate. I laughed at it but then Mari turned to me and said, "Ya, why don't they? I wonder where they do.... Hmmm" What's up with that??? Was she serious? Mari is a Korean girl from quite a successful upper class family but there she was in Starbucks, sipping on her overly priced coffee while sitting there in her very stylish, name brand clothes. Talk about awkward moment.
3. As the school term is coming down to the crunch, the school days have been blending into each other and I honestly am struggling with distinguishing one day from the next. I'm so busy with trying to update marks, hand back quizzes, student appointments, emailing students, and the list continues.
4. Having said this, I don't know if it was today or Tuesday when I got a most unexpected and super sweet phone call from my little Korean sister, Jane, in the States. She had called me to cheer me up cause of the whole recent break-up. She just broke up with her boyfriend too and so now we both have returned to the Singles Club. It was so awesome to hear her voice and I felt so happy to talk to her. I started thinking about her phone call today and so it kind of lingered in my head all day.
5. Definitely the highlight of my job is the actual teaching part. Today as I stood in front of 32 students in my first class, it hit me... this is exactly where I should be, teaching. This is me. The class was packed with hyper students and so we kind of got off topic but I love that. I love walking around the classroom and just rambling with the students. It's pretty cool to hear them test out their English. English has opened up a whole new world to them and so it's pretty cool to have eager students try to make me laugh with their funny stories.
6. There's a few boys in this one class that love learning slang and so I try to give them some new slang every class. Well, today I walked up to one and asked him what he was doing. He was clearly not doing his work but, in a serious face, he looked up to me and said, "I'm chilling like a villain." Hehehehe... I was almost in tears with laughter. I had taught him that slang a couple of weeks ago. Today's slang of the day was, "That's hype!"
7. You know the "two-second" rule, the rule that says you have only two seconds to pick any food that falls on the floor before it becomes contaminated?! Well... in my house I have a one-second rule... you have one second to pick it up before Mi Nam does. I'm convinced he thinks he's a four-legged walking garbage machine. I dropped a piece of apple today... 1 second, gone! Dropped a straw... 1 second, gone. Dropped a coin... 1 second, gone. Mind ya, two seconds later, the coin was back on the floor... he had spit it out. Hehehe. I'm not too sure if he has some kind of oral fixation but if he thinks he can put it in his mouth, he will and he does. I'm talking about food, pieces of garbage, cigarette butts outside, pens, my cell phone... etc. He even tries to chew on the floor, I'm serious. He's NOT normal. Anyway, the other day he killed a new t-shirt of mine that I had dropped while unloading the laundry machine. Of course I didn't realize this until it was too late. I knew he was too quiet in the other room, damn!
8. Headed out in the evening to see Wild Child. I let myself in but when I entered the house, it was in complete darkness. Wild Child was no where in sight but I knew she was home. Her little runners were at the front entrance. So, I stood there trying to hear her out. She was curled up under her bedsheets crying. I was confused... was she here alone? Turns out she had been home alone for a couple of hours. I tried to call her mom but her mom's cell phone was turned off. Hmmm...
9. In my attempt to try to cheer up Wild Child, I took her to the store for some ice cream. Ice cream always makes me smile and kids love it. However, as we walked around in the store, Wild Child had this sudden urge to take off her pants. I have NO idea what that was about but you can imagine how bad it looked when another customer entered the shop and saw me standing in the isle with a little 7 year old who's pants were around her ankles! Oh my gosh!!! Wild Child stood there laughing as I totally blushed with embarrassment
10. I know I'm not Wild Child's mother but I just didn't feel comfortable leaving her home alone and so I stuck around for a couple of hours. We played tag, soccer, ate ice cream, sang songs, and then she tried to make me tea... hehehe. Then, out of the blue, a neighbor dropped by and said she was here to pick up Wild Child. That was my exit cue.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Are you serious?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
Family isn't about whose blood you have. It's about who you care about.
-- Trey Parker and Matt Stone
2. I thought the conversation was rather intense and so I thought I'd lighten it up with sarcastically asking, "How come they don't have guys working on Hooker Hill?" It was definitely a rhetorical question cause I don't promote prostitution, have never supported it, nor am I hard up for skin. I may be single but I'm not desperate. I laughed at it but then Mari turned to me and said, "Ya, why don't they? I wonder where they do.... Hmmm" What's up with that??? Was she serious? Mari is a Korean girl from quite a successful upper class family but there she was in Starbucks, sipping on her overly priced coffee while sitting there in her very stylish, name brand clothes. Talk about awkward moment.
3. As the school term is coming down to the crunch, the school days have been blending into each other and I honestly am struggling with distinguishing one day from the next. I'm so busy with trying to update marks, hand back quizzes, student appointments, emailing students, and the list continues.
4. Having said this, I don't know if it was today or Tuesday when I got a most unexpected and super sweet phone call from my little Korean sister, Jane, in the States. She had called me to cheer me up cause of the whole recent break-up. She just broke up with her boyfriend too and so now we both have returned to the Singles Club. It was so awesome to hear her voice and I felt so happy to talk to her. I started thinking about her phone call today and so it kind of lingered in my head all day.
5. Definitely the highlight of my job is the actual teaching part. Today as I stood in front of 32 students in my first class, it hit me... this is exactly where I should be, teaching. This is me. The class was packed with hyper students and so we kind of got off topic but I love that. I love walking around the classroom and just rambling with the students. It's pretty cool to hear them test out their English. English has opened up a whole new world to them and so it's pretty cool to have eager students try to make me laugh with their funny stories.
6. There's a few boys in this one class that love learning slang and so I try to give them some new slang every class. Well, today I walked up to one and asked him what he was doing. He was clearly not doing his work but, in a serious face, he looked up to me and said, "I'm chilling like a villain." Hehehehe... I was almost in tears with laughter. I had taught him that slang a couple of weeks ago. Today's slang of the day was, "That's hype!"
7. You know the "two-second" rule, the rule that says you have only two seconds to pick any food that falls on the floor before it becomes contaminated?! Well... in my house I have a one-second rule... you have one second to pick it up before Mi Nam does. I'm convinced he thinks he's a four-legged walking garbage machine. I dropped a piece of apple today... 1 second, gone! Dropped a straw... 1 second, gone. Dropped a coin... 1 second, gone. Mind ya, two seconds later, the coin was back on the floor... he had spit it out. Hehehe. I'm not too sure if he has some kind of oral fixation but if he thinks he can put it in his mouth, he will and he does. I'm talking about food, pieces of garbage, cigarette butts outside, pens, my cell phone... etc. He even tries to chew on the floor, I'm serious. He's NOT normal. Anyway, the other day he killed a new t-shirt of mine that I had dropped while unloading the laundry machine. Of course I didn't realize this until it was too late. I knew he was too quiet in the other room, damn!
8. Headed out in the evening to see Wild Child. I let myself in but when I entered the house, it was in complete darkness. Wild Child was no where in sight but I knew she was home. Her little runners were at the front entrance. So, I stood there trying to hear her out. She was curled up under her bedsheets crying. I was confused... was she here alone? Turns out she had been home alone for a couple of hours. I tried to call her mom but her mom's cell phone was turned off. Hmmm...
9. In my attempt to try to cheer up Wild Child, I took her to the store for some ice cream. Ice cream always makes me smile and kids love it. However, as we walked around in the store, Wild Child had this sudden urge to take off her pants. I have NO idea what that was about but you can imagine how bad it looked when another customer entered the shop and saw me standing in the isle with a little 7 year old who's pants were around her ankles! Oh my gosh!!! Wild Child stood there laughing as I totally blushed with embarrassment
10. I know I'm not Wild Child's mother but I just didn't feel comfortable leaving her home alone and so I stuck around for a couple of hours. We played tag, soccer, ate ice cream, sang songs, and then she tried to make me tea... hehehe. Then, out of the blue, a neighbor dropped by and said she was here to pick up Wild Child. That was my exit cue.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Are you serious?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
Family isn't about whose blood you have. It's about who you care about.
-- Trey Parker and Matt Stone
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Wednesday, May 30
1. Traveled an hour and a half for a hug… but it was totally worth it. I had headed out to Seoul to see my friend, Wonder Woman, and so she greeted me with a big warm hug. We hardly see each other but I know that’s my fault… I don’t really like going to Seoul.
2. Anyway, we headed out for lunch. I had arrived a bit late (lately that’s been my new style… hehe, fashionably late). She was on a time limit cause she’s taking a business course for her company but she scrapped her plans and instead sat and had some seriously good girl talk with me.
3. After I scored yet another hug from Wonder Woman, she headed back to school and I went in search of this notorious English bookstore she had told me about. She was right, it was huge! It was the mother of all English bookstores in Korea! Holy sensory overload! I was like a kid in a candy store, grabbing and touching any book I could get my little Polish hands on… hehehe.
4. Slowly but surely I see myself becoming more and more like my parents. My mother is infactuated with books. She’s got like a billion and one library cards from various libraries (city library, church library) and even had me agree to sign up for a card so that she could use it and take out a whole slue of books… hehehe. Well lately I’m feeling the itch to buy books. My current interest books has been in regards to Korean language books. I’ve got a couple of different Korean dictionaries and a good stack of Korean self study textbooks. Today I bought yet another self study text. It’s a writing textbook, 20 chapters and about 200 pages in length. My goal for the summer is to finish this text and my other one, “Survival Korean”.
5. It’s always interesting coming to Seoul because it’s just so different than Cheonan…. There’s a heck of a lot more people, the fashion is different, more traffic, more foreigners… and of course, I can’t forget to mention there’s a heck of a lot more good-looking business men here. It must have been lunch time when I went strolling around cause the streets were flooded with cute little business men in their ties and suits. They looked like dolls with their high-maintance hair and picture-perfect smooth styles. I tried hard not to stare but wow, Korean men are so beautiful. I guess I had caught the eye of this one guy who stood at the corner, near Coffee Bean. He was trying to fix his tie and so I couldn’t help but giggle cause he looked like a helpless child doing a task that I think is relatively simple. He looked up at me and gave a grin.
6. Ended up running ion Mr. Coffee Bean dude again, like an hour later. As I passed him, he pretended to cough and so I smiled back but continued on my way. It wasn’t until much later, when I stopped at the crosswalk, that I realized he had been walking behind me. He was so cute and had I not just been burnt by Pretty Boy, I probably would have talked to him but instead, I turned around and in Korean I called him a troublemaker. You can imagine his surprise when I said that totally out of the blue! I was quite shocked too to hear myself say it to a complete strange. I know, I shouldn’t have said it but lately I’ve been thinking that guys are nothing but trouble. I love Korean men and I think they’re so beautiful but they come with an invisible warning that I’ve thrown on them, “Look, but don’t touch.”
7. After being away all day, Mi Nam was so excited to see me when I got home. He wouldn’t stop jumping and so I started to play wrestle with him. I’d roll on the ground and he’d jump on me… but, it was all fun and games until he stepped on my head and left my neck all bloody. I didn’t notice it at first but then saw blood on the hardwood flooring. I rushed to the bathroom to check myself out in the mirror and…. Wow! He had totally scratched up my whole back and had done a number on the back of my neck.
8. Opted out of training tonight due to the fact that I looked all gangster with my back cut up and the gash on my neck. It didn’t hurt but it didn’t look good. I looked like a total scrapper and so stayed home. I didn’t want to give them any more reason why to consider me the gym outcast, it’s already ackward enough that I’m the only chick there that pushes the weights and actually runs on the treadmill… hehehe.
9. Late in the evening, as I struggled to get in some beauty sleep, I just couldn’t shake off what was on my mind. I had intended to work on my student marking today but I had gone to Seoul and then wasted my evening away with doing nothing in particular. I’m uncomfortable using Excel spreadsheets and, although I consider myself intelligent, I also know I’m quite the procrastinator when it comes to not doing things I’m not comfortable with.
10. My remedy… call up Do Chun. Our conversation started off with me pouring out my stress via the telephone line and then ended with us talking about relationships. I asked him to give me his honest answer about some things I was curious about in regards to guys and relationships. I wanted the insider’s scoop. However, it seems like the more I learn about men, the more I learn I really don’t know much about them. How ironic is that?!
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
You lookin' at me?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
Men are from Mars.
-- Author Unknown
2. Anyway, we headed out for lunch. I had arrived a bit late (lately that’s been my new style… hehe, fashionably late). She was on a time limit cause she’s taking a business course for her company but she scrapped her plans and instead sat and had some seriously good girl talk with me.
3. After I scored yet another hug from Wonder Woman, she headed back to school and I went in search of this notorious English bookstore she had told me about. She was right, it was huge! It was the mother of all English bookstores in Korea! Holy sensory overload! I was like a kid in a candy store, grabbing and touching any book I could get my little Polish hands on… hehehe.
4. Slowly but surely I see myself becoming more and more like my parents. My mother is infactuated with books. She’s got like a billion and one library cards from various libraries (city library, church library) and even had me agree to sign up for a card so that she could use it and take out a whole slue of books… hehehe. Well lately I’m feeling the itch to buy books. My current interest books has been in regards to Korean language books. I’ve got a couple of different Korean dictionaries and a good stack of Korean self study textbooks. Today I bought yet another self study text. It’s a writing textbook, 20 chapters and about 200 pages in length. My goal for the summer is to finish this text and my other one, “Survival Korean”.
5. It’s always interesting coming to Seoul because it’s just so different than Cheonan…. There’s a heck of a lot more people, the fashion is different, more traffic, more foreigners… and of course, I can’t forget to mention there’s a heck of a lot more good-looking business men here. It must have been lunch time when I went strolling around cause the streets were flooded with cute little business men in their ties and suits. They looked like dolls with their high-maintance hair and picture-perfect smooth styles. I tried hard not to stare but wow, Korean men are so beautiful. I guess I had caught the eye of this one guy who stood at the corner, near Coffee Bean. He was trying to fix his tie and so I couldn’t help but giggle cause he looked like a helpless child doing a task that I think is relatively simple. He looked up at me and gave a grin.
6. Ended up running ion Mr. Coffee Bean dude again, like an hour later. As I passed him, he pretended to cough and so I smiled back but continued on my way. It wasn’t until much later, when I stopped at the crosswalk, that I realized he had been walking behind me. He was so cute and had I not just been burnt by Pretty Boy, I probably would have talked to him but instead, I turned around and in Korean I called him a troublemaker. You can imagine his surprise when I said that totally out of the blue! I was quite shocked too to hear myself say it to a complete strange. I know, I shouldn’t have said it but lately I’ve been thinking that guys are nothing but trouble. I love Korean men and I think they’re so beautiful but they come with an invisible warning that I’ve thrown on them, “Look, but don’t touch.”
7. After being away all day, Mi Nam was so excited to see me when I got home. He wouldn’t stop jumping and so I started to play wrestle with him. I’d roll on the ground and he’d jump on me… but, it was all fun and games until he stepped on my head and left my neck all bloody. I didn’t notice it at first but then saw blood on the hardwood flooring. I rushed to the bathroom to check myself out in the mirror and…. Wow! He had totally scratched up my whole back and had done a number on the back of my neck.
8. Opted out of training tonight due to the fact that I looked all gangster with my back cut up and the gash on my neck. It didn’t hurt but it didn’t look good. I looked like a total scrapper and so stayed home. I didn’t want to give them any more reason why to consider me the gym outcast, it’s already ackward enough that I’m the only chick there that pushes the weights and actually runs on the treadmill… hehehe.
9. Late in the evening, as I struggled to get in some beauty sleep, I just couldn’t shake off what was on my mind. I had intended to work on my student marking today but I had gone to Seoul and then wasted my evening away with doing nothing in particular. I’m uncomfortable using Excel spreadsheets and, although I consider myself intelligent, I also know I’m quite the procrastinator when it comes to not doing things I’m not comfortable with.
10. My remedy… call up Do Chun. Our conversation started off with me pouring out my stress via the telephone line and then ended with us talking about relationships. I asked him to give me his honest answer about some things I was curious about in regards to guys and relationships. I wanted the insider’s scoop. However, it seems like the more I learn about men, the more I learn I really don’t know much about them. How ironic is that?!
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
You lookin' at me?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
Men are from Mars.
-- Author Unknown
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Tuesday, May 29
1. Woke up early in the morning and took Mi Nam for an early 
morning stroll. The guy at Starbucks lets me bring him into the shop and so I sat there, daydreaming about what life in Korea is really like for me. Regardless of my constant rambling, useless and petty complaining, and stressing over the little things, my life in Korea is pretty sweet.
2. Today it just got sweeter!!!
3. Recently I’ve had the pleasure of meeting a very influential and powerful legal man here in Cheonan and, as if smoozing with him (Mr. Top-Notch) wasn’t cool enough, today he invited me out for lunch with the Donald Trump of Cheonan!!! Without revealing his identity too much, I’ll call him Mr. Money-Bags and say that he owns the infamous massive tower that overlooks downtown Cheonan. He owns another huge tower across town and is notoriously known. If money were clean, he’d surely bath in it and use it as toilet paper! He’s an older man, a married man, who’s evidently very good at his line of work and is very influential here in Cheonan.
4. After lunch, Mr. Money-Bags took me and Mr. Top-Notch to his huge tower were he then gave us a grand tour of 5 the floors he occupies. It was absolutely beautiful!!! Each floor had a different theme with the décor and so it was very impressive and screamed “mad cash lives here”!!! He introduced me to all his staff and so I felt quite elite walking in and out of all the offices with him.
5. As if the tour wasn’t sweet enough, he then took us to his private office where his personal secretary then served us tea and we sat on luxurious brown leather sofas looking out over downtown Cheonan. I felt like I was sitting with royalty… it’s crazy how rich some people are!!!
6. After my lunch meeting, I then had to come back down to reality and head off to school. I
really enjoy my Tuesday classes cause they mainly consist of hyper boys who aren’t so shy to participate. In my attempt to give them a serious lecture about the exam, I had asked them, “What can you do if you don’t know the answer to a question on the test?” I was hoping they’d say things like, “Ask the teacher for help” or “Leave it to the end and then return to the question”. Instead however, one of the guy’s at the back of the room put his hand up and said, “Write I love Michelle”… hehehe. I thought that 
was quite funny and so we all had a good laugh. What’s even funnier though is the fact that numerous students actually try to pull this stunt on the quizzes! Hehehe.
7. In my evening class I was pleasantly surprised by this one girl who’s notorious for speaking out in class, showing up late, texting on her phone… all the bad habits a student could possibly have, basically. Anyway, tonight she surprised me when she put her hand up during the lesson. When I called on her to let her speak, she then gave this huge speech on how she has changed and is trying to focus in my class now. Her speech was like 3 minutes
long and everyone was impressed but considering there’s only 2 more weeks of classes, it’s a little too late. Nonetheless though, it’s good to see she’s finally coming around.
8. Was supposed to go out for dinner with a friend of mine tonight but, at last minute, I cancelled. I don’t consider him to be a close friend of mine but he use to be my friend She Ann’s boyfriend. I’m not too sure how serious they use to be, nor do I really care, it’s irrelevant, but I get the impression that he’s wanting more than
friendship. I am SO not getting involved with that. I've already completed that lesson not so long ago and so I called off dinner and instead, had a party for one at Kimbab Nala.
9. I am obviously still hurt over the whole Pretty Boy situation… I can’t even really bring myself to type about it without getting a bit upset.
10. Late in the evening, as I curled up on the couch with Mi Nam,
I started thinking about love, life… and my lack there of it (love). I believe in fate but I don’t believe in luck. Everything happens for a reason and no matter what you do, fate always finds you. Having said this however, what happens if you try to go against fate… maybe that’s what I’m doing. Maybe that’s why love hasn’t been working out for me. Maybe it’s not that I am not “girlfriend material”, maybe it’s because I’m trying to go against fate. I mean, I came here to Korea with the intentions of staying one year, that was the plan. But then I called off my engagement, fell in love with Ryan, and stayed a second year. Then, that too ended but I stayed yet another year. So… what am I getting at here you ask, good question. Maybe as much as I love Korea and as much 
as I think this where I am suppose to be, maybe it’s not. Maybe the past break-ups and heartache in Korea was God’s sign for me to leave and yet I totally ignored them. Am I going against nature? Against fate? Hmmm…. which brings me to another point. When I visited Canada in January, I actually started dating someone, Kobe. It was totally unexpected but kind of was brought about by the whole purse-stealing situation that happened while I was out with him. We had such amazing chemistry and I spent most of my vacation time with him as oppose to seeing all my old friends and family. When I finally had to leave Canada and return to Korea, I was so upset to leave him and so, a couple of days before I had even left, I started to cry at the thoughts of having to say goodbye to him. Were we awesome together only because we knew we couldn’t continue this past my trip or would I still be dating him if I lived in Canada? To this day I still talk to Kobe on msn and through text messages. Moreover, how come I was so quick to meet such an awesome guy and yet here in Korea, I’ve been single for numerous months, only to then date a guy that, well… wasn’t so great. I don’t know… maybe I think too much. Maybe that’s my problem. Hmmm….
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Am I "unnatural"?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
The goal of life is living in agreement with nature.
-- Zeno
morning stroll. The guy at Starbucks lets me bring him into the shop and so I sat there, daydreaming about what life in Korea is really like for me. Regardless of my constant rambling, useless and petty complaining, and stressing over the little things, my life in Korea is pretty sweet. 2. Today it just got sweeter!!!
3. Recently I’ve had the pleasure of meeting a very influential and powerful legal man here in Cheonan and, as if smoozing with him (Mr. Top-Notch) wasn’t cool enough, today he invited me out for lunch with the Donald Trump of Cheonan!!! Without revealing his identity too much, I’ll call him Mr. Money-Bags and say that he owns the infamous massive tower that overlooks downtown Cheonan. He owns another huge tower across town and is notoriously known. If money were clean, he’d surely bath in it and use it as toilet paper! He’s an older man, a married man, who’s evidently very good at his line of work and is very influential here in Cheonan.
4. After lunch, Mr. Money-Bags took me and Mr. Top-Notch to his huge tower were he then gave us a grand tour of 5 the floors he occupies. It was absolutely beautiful!!! Each floor had a different theme with the décor and so it was very impressive and screamed “mad cash lives here”!!! He introduced me to all his staff and so I felt quite elite walking in and out of all the offices with him.
5. As if the tour wasn’t sweet enough, he then took us to his private office where his personal secretary then served us tea and we sat on luxurious brown leather sofas looking out over downtown Cheonan. I felt like I was sitting with royalty… it’s crazy how rich some people are!!!
6. After my lunch meeting, I then had to come back down to reality and head off to school. I
really enjoy my Tuesday classes cause they mainly consist of hyper boys who aren’t so shy to participate. In my attempt to give them a serious lecture about the exam, I had asked them, “What can you do if you don’t know the answer to a question on the test?” I was hoping they’d say things like, “Ask the teacher for help” or “Leave it to the end and then return to the question”. Instead however, one of the guy’s at the back of the room put his hand up and said, “Write I love Michelle”… hehehe. I thought that 
was quite funny and so we all had a good laugh. What’s even funnier though is the fact that numerous students actually try to pull this stunt on the quizzes! Hehehe.7. In my evening class I was pleasantly surprised by this one girl who’s notorious for speaking out in class, showing up late, texting on her phone… all the bad habits a student could possibly have, basically. Anyway, tonight she surprised me when she put her hand up during the lesson. When I called on her to let her speak, she then gave this huge speech on how she has changed and is trying to focus in my class now. Her speech was like 3 minutes
long and everyone was impressed but considering there’s only 2 more weeks of classes, it’s a little too late. Nonetheless though, it’s good to see she’s finally coming around.8. Was supposed to go out for dinner with a friend of mine tonight but, at last minute, I cancelled. I don’t consider him to be a close friend of mine but he use to be my friend She Ann’s boyfriend. I’m not too sure how serious they use to be, nor do I really care, it’s irrelevant, but I get the impression that he’s wanting more than
friendship. I am SO not getting involved with that. I've already completed that lesson not so long ago and so I called off dinner and instead, had a party for one at Kimbab Nala.9. I am obviously still hurt over the whole Pretty Boy situation… I can’t even really bring myself to type about it without getting a bit upset.
10. Late in the evening, as I curled up on the couch with Mi Nam,
I started thinking about love, life… and my lack there of it (love). I believe in fate but I don’t believe in luck. Everything happens for a reason and no matter what you do, fate always finds you. Having said this however, what happens if you try to go against fate… maybe that’s what I’m doing. Maybe that’s why love hasn’t been working out for me. Maybe it’s not that I am not “girlfriend material”, maybe it’s because I’m trying to go against fate. I mean, I came here to Korea with the intentions of staying one year, that was the plan. But then I called off my engagement, fell in love with Ryan, and stayed a second year. Then, that too ended but I stayed yet another year. So… what am I getting at here you ask, good question. Maybe as much as I love Korea and as much 
as I think this where I am suppose to be, maybe it’s not. Maybe the past break-ups and heartache in Korea was God’s sign for me to leave and yet I totally ignored them. Am I going against nature? Against fate? Hmmm…. which brings me to another point. When I visited Canada in January, I actually started dating someone, Kobe. It was totally unexpected but kind of was brought about by the whole purse-stealing situation that happened while I was out with him. We had such amazing chemistry and I spent most of my vacation time with him as oppose to seeing all my old friends and family. When I finally had to leave Canada and return to Korea, I was so upset to leave him and so, a couple of days before I had even left, I started to cry at the thoughts of having to say goodbye to him. Were we awesome together only because we knew we couldn’t continue this past my trip or would I still be dating him if I lived in Canada? To this day I still talk to Kobe on msn and through text messages. Moreover, how come I was so quick to meet such an awesome guy and yet here in Korea, I’ve been single for numerous months, only to then date a guy that, well… wasn’t so great. I don’t know… maybe I think too much. Maybe that’s my problem. Hmmm….QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Am I "unnatural"?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
The goal of life is living in agreement with nature.
-- Zeno
Monday, May 28, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Monday, May 28
1. By the time 11am rolled around I had already had a jammed pack morning. Let's see, what did I do.... I went for an early morning jog, had a meeting, loaded up on caffeine, had breakfast, checked out the local book store, emailed a million and one people, broke up with Pretty Boy, paid my housing bills, and played soccer with Mi Nam.
2. Yup, you read it correctly. Pretty Boy is out of the picture. Although I've been trying to accept his evident selfishness and lack of sensitivity towards me as a woman and as a girlfriend, I really wasn't cool with him calling me up today and hearing him blurt out "I hate you". I don't know why he said it but he did. Instantly my blood boiled and I sat in my chair with my fists clinched. But then I thought to myself, he's young... how could he possibly know how to deal with a real woman?! But me, being the stubborn Polish woman that I am, I just had to have the last line and so I asked him, "Do you know the word karma?" He said no and so then after the conversation ended, I texted him the word. I figured the least I could do was give him a kind of heads up on what's coming his way.
3. My mother raised me to be a strong independent woman and my father raised me to be a lady and so, on that note, I have nothing more to say about Pretty Boy. Despite the disappointment and heartache that I feel right now, I know I will get over it. I have way too much going for myself to have some dude kill it for me. I refuse to let him tainten my experience in Korea and take away from the beautiful life I live here. I'm a firm believer in karma and so that's exactly where I'll leave him... in karma's hands.
4. Although I was upset, I decided to go into work extra early today. Ki Dong had returned from his month of being away (he was away doing his practicum) and so it was so great to see him. I really missed our sarcastic conversations and his random far-fetched ideas that always made me laugh. As a joke he asked me what was new and asked if I had changed my boyfriend, I guess he didn't really expect me to say yes and so he felt kind of bad. That's ok, no worries. I haven't changed my boyfriend, I have no boyfriend.
5. With too much time on my hands before class and no students dropping by the office to ask me for help, I sat around contemplating my summer plans. Originally I was going to work at a couple of English camps but then I thought, what's the point?! After all, I'm getting two months paid holidays and I'm definitely not hard up for cash.
My Summer Plans:
a. Volunteer at the local orphanage
b. Babysit Soul (my friend's little 5 year-old cutie)
c. Train like a mad woman
d. Do some renovations on my house
e. Teach Mi Nam some tricks
f. Finish off my two self-study Korean language textbooks
g. Re-read all the Korean culture textbooks I brought here from my university days
h. Find a boxing gym in Cheonan
6. Headed over to see Sue for a game of chess, in which she creamed me!!! Sue may only be 7 years old but she always has some kind of silly advice to give me. I told her about Pretty Boy and she responded by saying, "Don't worry. Korea has many men. You just need to wear more skirts." I don't know what that's suppose to mean but it was as funny as hell.
7. As I made my way home, Hannah called me up and told me she was taking me out for supper. I really didn't want to be with
anyone but I knew that I needed to be surrounded with friends and, who better to hang out with, than her. I know she doesn't have much money and so her taking me out to dinner was really amazing and super thoughtful of her. Jae Min joined up with us after supper and so we headed off for ice cream and coffee. Ice cream always makes me smile and Jae Min and Hannah always make me laugh... it was the perfect remedy and it worked to totally wipe out the drab morning I had.
8. They say "You have to know the sweet to know the sour" and so I suppose that means you also have to know the sour to know the sweet, sounds right. Well, today's morning was definitely sour but tonight, with Hannah and Jae Min, it
was so sweet... super sweet. I guess it took me to go through this today to realize just how awesome those two are. As we sat there eating ice cream, Jae Min leaned towards me and told me "You are never alone; you have us".
9. As I walked home from my evening out, I received two text messages from a co-worker of mine, Ji Young. She wrote, "I'm worried about you.... I'm a good listener ~ Whenever feel blue talk to me. I wanna share your burden." How awesome is she?!!!
10. So, despite the rocky start to my morning, I ended the day off on a really good note... an awesome note actually. I'd like to say a HUGE thanks to my whole K-Crew here and to all my friends on FaceBook who showered me with concern and encouragement today. You'll never know how much it meant to me but I just wanted to say thank you.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Is the glass half empty or half full?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
In the middle of every difficulty lies opportunity.
-- Albert Einstein
2. Yup, you read it correctly. Pretty Boy is out of the picture. Although I've been trying to accept his evident selfishness and lack of sensitivity towards me as a woman and as a girlfriend, I really wasn't cool with him calling me up today and hearing him blurt out "I hate you". I don't know why he said it but he did. Instantly my blood boiled and I sat in my chair with my fists clinched. But then I thought to myself, he's young... how could he possibly know how to deal with a real woman?! But me, being the stubborn Polish woman that I am, I just had to have the last line and so I asked him, "Do you know the word karma?" He said no and so then after the conversation ended, I texted him the word. I figured the least I could do was give him a kind of heads up on what's coming his way.
3. My mother raised me to be a strong independent woman and my father raised me to be a lady and so, on that note, I have nothing more to say about Pretty Boy. Despite the disappointment and heartache that I feel right now, I know I will get over it. I have way too much going for myself to have some dude kill it for me. I refuse to let him tainten my experience in Korea and take away from the beautiful life I live here. I'm a firm believer in karma and so that's exactly where I'll leave him... in karma's hands.
4. Although I was upset, I decided to go into work extra early today. Ki Dong had returned from his month of being away (he was away doing his practicum) and so it was so great to see him. I really missed our sarcastic conversations and his random far-fetched ideas that always made me laugh. As a joke he asked me what was new and asked if I had changed my boyfriend, I guess he didn't really expect me to say yes and so he felt kind of bad. That's ok, no worries. I haven't changed my boyfriend, I have no boyfriend.
5. With too much time on my hands before class and no students dropping by the office to ask me for help, I sat around contemplating my summer plans. Originally I was going to work at a couple of English camps but then I thought, what's the point?! After all, I'm getting two months paid holidays and I'm definitely not hard up for cash.
My Summer Plans:
a. Volunteer at the local orphanage
b. Babysit Soul (my friend's little 5 year-old cutie)
c. Train like a mad woman
d. Do some renovations on my house
e. Teach Mi Nam some tricks
f. Finish off my two self-study Korean language textbooks
g. Re-read all the Korean culture textbooks I brought here from my university days
h. Find a boxing gym in Cheonan
6. Headed over to see Sue for a game of chess, in which she creamed me!!! Sue may only be 7 years old but she always has some kind of silly advice to give me. I told her about Pretty Boy and she responded by saying, "Don't worry. Korea has many men. You just need to wear more skirts." I don't know what that's suppose to mean but it was as funny as hell.
7. As I made my way home, Hannah called me up and told me she was taking me out for supper. I really didn't want to be with
anyone but I knew that I needed to be surrounded with friends and, who better to hang out with, than her. I know she doesn't have much money and so her taking me out to dinner was really amazing and super thoughtful of her. Jae Min joined up with us after supper and so we headed off for ice cream and coffee. Ice cream always makes me smile and Jae Min and Hannah always make me laugh... it was the perfect remedy and it worked to totally wipe out the drab morning I had. 8. They say "You have to know the sweet to know the sour" and so I suppose that means you also have to know the sour to know the sweet, sounds right. Well, today's morning was definitely sour but tonight, with Hannah and Jae Min, it
was so sweet... super sweet. I guess it took me to go through this today to realize just how awesome those two are. As we sat there eating ice cream, Jae Min leaned towards me and told me "You are never alone; you have us". 9. As I walked home from my evening out, I received two text messages from a co-worker of mine, Ji Young. She wrote, "I'm worried about you.... I'm a good listener ~ Whenever feel blue talk to me. I wanna share your burden." How awesome is she?!!!
10. So, despite the rocky start to my morning, I ended the day off on a really good note... an awesome note actually. I'd like to say a HUGE thanks to my whole K-Crew here and to all my friends on FaceBook who showered me with concern and encouragement today. You'll never know how much it meant to me but I just wanted to say thank you.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Is the glass half empty or half full?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
In the middle of every difficulty lies opportunity.
-- Albert Einstein
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Sunday, May 27
1. Rolled out of my sheets around noon and headed out for a run. Wasn't quite successful though cause as I got down to the main floor lobby of my building, the security man stopped me and gave me banana milk. Sat around with him for a bit and then headed back home, totally forgetting why I had gone down there in the first place... hehehe.
2. My failed attempt to go jogging was the closest I got to actually leaving my house today. For the rest of the day I hibernated in my house and finally got down to business with my school work. Spent about 3 hours making a practice exam PowerPoint presentation in which I then had to email to all 200 students. Then I spent another good 2-3 hours typing up the actual exam.
3. In between doing the practice exam and typing the real exam up, I allowed myself some down time and so I peeled myself away from the computer screen to play soccer with Mi Nam in the house and to bust some funky moves to some old skool music. I'm trying to figure out what to do for my next dance video.
4. Got chatting to Do Chun on msn. We once went on a date in Seoul back in the day but we're cool. I gave him a quick Korean history lesson on Yu Kwon Soon... She's a wicked role model. Do Chun may be Korean born but he was raised in America. Anyway, he's quite sarcastic like me and it was nice to vent to him about an issue that's been weighing heavy on my chest lately.... Pretty Boy.
5. The other day I talked to my ex on msn, my ex being Ryan. It was quite strange to talk to him after all this time but it was good. I know that we have our differences and despite the ugliness that stained our relationship at the end of it all, I still think he's an awesome guy. I know we will never be "us" again but I think of him from time to time. He's in everything around me... he's in the bedsheets that I sleep in (they were once his), the scooter helmet that sits on my stairs, the Park Ji Sung jersey that hangs in my office, the speakers that sit on my desk, the pickles that are pushed to the back of my fridge, the blown out light bulb,.. he's even in the big scratch in my hardwood floor. No matter how much I think I am over him, I still carry with him. He showed me love. He taught my heart how to open up and really love someone for everything they are, strengths and weaknesses. I think of him from time to time and still do care about him, that's a given. Although we ended on ugly terms, I can't really remember the ugliness and instead am quite surprised at how I still think of him as beautiful. He may have not been romantic by my terms but he did try. He was always there to help me and I always thought he was so smart, I loved that.
6. Having said this, I realized that Pretty Boy could never be Ryan to me. I know it's not a matter of comparing the two but Ryan was a really awesome guy, just not the guy for me. And so, what's the deal with Pretty Boy? Tonight I talked to him on the phone. He didn't know that my friend was on msn listening in to the conversation... I had left the msn microphone on while he and I talked. My friend was in shock at what he heard and said very little except for the fact that he didn't think that our conversation sounded like one between a girlfriend and her boyfriend.
7. I tried to go to sleep early cause I had to be up tomorrow at 6am but I couldn't help but think about what my friend said. I think the fact that I lost two friends for this relationship already put a lot of pressure on us. Him moving way out to Incheon just added to this pressure. But lately he's changed... he complains about not wanting to worry about me and so this in turn worries me.
8. And so, in my moment of weakness, as I laid in bed totally thinking too into the whole situation, I text messaged Byung Hyuk. Pretty Boy had told me not too and, up until tonight, I hadn't. I agreed to Pretty Boy's request. He had told me that I didn't need friends like that cause I had him, I had Pretty Boy... but, where was Pretty Boy tonight after he totally was a punk on the phone... probably kicking it back with the boys and enjoying the rest of his evening while my evening was shot.
9. I still stand by my comment saying that I think Drama Boy is immature and I still think it's wrong that Byung Hyuk left me the way that he did but, you know what, we all make our mistakes. We're not perfect... we're only doing what we think is best. Was my decision to make a couple with Pretty Boy the best decision? I don't know but at the time I thought it was. If only I knew what I knew now, I know for a FACT that I would have done things differently. I can't go back and change history though. I can only learn from my past mistakes and hope to not repeat them.
10. So, on that note, I cried in my bed, totally regretting the lost of my two friends. I love Pretty Boy but I love my friends too, even if they are childish and give me silly stress at times. They were really good to me. They took me bowling, taught me how to fish Korean style, taught me how to snowboard, and really helped me go through my whole disastrous break-up with my ex. I know I've said some not-so-nice things about them but most of those things were said cause I was upset and bitter... and confused. Seeing "him" yesterday really hurt me when I saw him try so hard to avoid me. I'm assuming that Byung Hyuk won't message me back but I just wanted him to know that I missed the both of them so much. It's been so long since I've talked to them or even said their names and so I don't think I even spelt their names right in the text message.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Can we ever get back what we once had?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.
-- Mahatma Gandhi
2. My failed attempt to go jogging was the closest I got to actually leaving my house today. For the rest of the day I hibernated in my house and finally got down to business with my school work. Spent about 3 hours making a practice exam PowerPoint presentation in which I then had to email to all 200 students. Then I spent another good 2-3 hours typing up the actual exam.
3. In between doing the practice exam and typing the real exam up, I allowed myself some down time and so I peeled myself away from the computer screen to play soccer with Mi Nam in the house and to bust some funky moves to some old skool music. I'm trying to figure out what to do for my next dance video.
4. Got chatting to Do Chun on msn. We once went on a date in Seoul back in the day but we're cool. I gave him a quick Korean history lesson on Yu Kwon Soon... She's a wicked role model. Do Chun may be Korean born but he was raised in America. Anyway, he's quite sarcastic like me and it was nice to vent to him about an issue that's been weighing heavy on my chest lately.... Pretty Boy.
5. The other day I talked to my ex on msn, my ex being Ryan. It was quite strange to talk to him after all this time but it was good. I know that we have our differences and despite the ugliness that stained our relationship at the end of it all, I still think he's an awesome guy. I know we will never be "us" again but I think of him from time to time. He's in everything around me... he's in the bedsheets that I sleep in (they were once his), the scooter helmet that sits on my stairs, the Park Ji Sung jersey that hangs in my office, the speakers that sit on my desk, the pickles that are pushed to the back of my fridge, the blown out light bulb,.. he's even in the big scratch in my hardwood floor. No matter how much I think I am over him, I still carry with him. He showed me love. He taught my heart how to open up and really love someone for everything they are, strengths and weaknesses. I think of him from time to time and still do care about him, that's a given. Although we ended on ugly terms, I can't really remember the ugliness and instead am quite surprised at how I still think of him as beautiful. He may have not been romantic by my terms but he did try. He was always there to help me and I always thought he was so smart, I loved that.
6. Having said this, I realized that Pretty Boy could never be Ryan to me. I know it's not a matter of comparing the two but Ryan was a really awesome guy, just not the guy for me. And so, what's the deal with Pretty Boy? Tonight I talked to him on the phone. He didn't know that my friend was on msn listening in to the conversation... I had left the msn microphone on while he and I talked. My friend was in shock at what he heard and said very little except for the fact that he didn't think that our conversation sounded like one between a girlfriend and her boyfriend.
7. I tried to go to sleep early cause I had to be up tomorrow at 6am but I couldn't help but think about what my friend said. I think the fact that I lost two friends for this relationship already put a lot of pressure on us. Him moving way out to Incheon just added to this pressure. But lately he's changed... he complains about not wanting to worry about me and so this in turn worries me.
8. And so, in my moment of weakness, as I laid in bed totally thinking too into the whole situation, I text messaged Byung Hyuk. Pretty Boy had told me not too and, up until tonight, I hadn't. I agreed to Pretty Boy's request. He had told me that I didn't need friends like that cause I had him, I had Pretty Boy... but, where was Pretty Boy tonight after he totally was a punk on the phone... probably kicking it back with the boys and enjoying the rest of his evening while my evening was shot.
9. I still stand by my comment saying that I think Drama Boy is immature and I still think it's wrong that Byung Hyuk left me the way that he did but, you know what, we all make our mistakes. We're not perfect... we're only doing what we think is best. Was my decision to make a couple with Pretty Boy the best decision? I don't know but at the time I thought it was. If only I knew what I knew now, I know for a FACT that I would have done things differently. I can't go back and change history though. I can only learn from my past mistakes and hope to not repeat them.
10. So, on that note, I cried in my bed, totally regretting the lost of my two friends. I love Pretty Boy but I love my friends too, even if they are childish and give me silly stress at times. They were really good to me. They took me bowling, taught me how to fish Korean style, taught me how to snowboard, and really helped me go through my whole disastrous break-up with my ex. I know I've said some not-so-nice things about them but most of those things were said cause I was upset and bitter... and confused. Seeing "him" yesterday really hurt me when I saw him try so hard to avoid me. I'm assuming that Byung Hyuk won't message me back but I just wanted him to know that I missed the both of them so much. It's been so long since I've talked to them or even said their names and so I don't think I even spelt their names right in the text message.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Can we ever get back what we once had?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.
-- Mahatma Gandhi
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Saturday, May 26
1. I saw you ... YOU know who you are!!!
2. I'm guessing that you occasionally check my homepage and so I just wanted to tell you that I saw you today. I don't think you knew I did, but I did. Actually, Mi Nam was the one that spotted first. As I stood at the lights near Kimbab Nala, his ears perked up and so I looked up; there you were. I eagerly awaited the light change because I wanted to say hi to you. I had so much I wanted to say to you cause I haven't seen you in so long! But, as I saw you cowardly rush away, hanging your head down low, below the street vendor's tent in hope that I wouldn't spot you, I instantly forgot all that I wanted to say. I felt embarrassed for you and was hurt. Your actions only proved to me that you're still immature. I am a grown woman; I am too young to be your mother and tell you how to act like a man. Which makes me wonder how many other times you saw me and ran away without me noticing.
3. Well as it seems, apparently the summer has arrived, or at least temporarily. Today it was so hot out and so after my walk, I hid-away in my apartment, cranked up the air condition and got out the ice coffee mix stashed in the cupboard.
4. I was suppose to go to Yong Chan's big golf tournament today but, considering there was no way I could get to Osan that early (cause of lack of transportation and it being 6am), I had to opt out. I felt bad cause I really wanted to show my support to him. I know we had our rocky start to our friendship but now we're good friends. He's always been there for me and he always goes out of his way to show me friendship.
5. Turns out something big went down at the tournament and so Yong Chan got rushed by ambulance to the hospital in Seoul. Lately he's been complaining about being under the weather and so I think today he just cracked under pressure. I'm not too sure what happened but his manager texted me throughout the day.
6. I'd hate to say this, and I'm totally sorry if I'm wrong, but honestly I thought it was some kind of sick joke he was playing. I say this cause of my initial run-in with Yong Chan was quite the dramatic scene. He was quite the Drama King... not quite as dramatic as Drama Boy though but none the less, very exaggerated. More so though, the fact that the text messages (that were supposedly from his manager) sounded just like Yong Chan's style of broken English, made me question it. They sounded too dramatic and a little bit far-fetched. I think a manager messaging random people "Oh my gosh..." is rather unprofessional and screams, "I want attention."
7. I didn't know what to think... was Yong Chan really not ok? Should I rush off to Seoul to see him? Well, I decided to stay put for the time being and so for the rest of the day I played phone tag with his manager.
8. On a different note, I found my much beloved and totally grieved over Anna Sui lip gloss that I thought I had lost... big smile there! Hehehe
9. Hit the gym and did a wicked arm work-out. Buff Boy was busy in the squash court but he was able to sneak away for a bit to talk to me. For the most part though, I was stuck training alone... correction, I was quite the sight for these two new girls who's eyes were apparently glued on me. What, haven't they seen a foreigner before or is it that they haven't seen a woman with muscle before?! Regardless, it made me so agitated. I could feel their stares burning a whole in the back of my head and Newbie caught on to this. I don't know what he said to them but then they blushed, bowed in my direction and then went along their way. After that, Newbie checked up on me a few times, watched my technique and offered some advice. I respect that. Thanks.
10. No credit given to Pretty Boy today for any smile that may have graced my face. If anything, today I give him all due credit for the stress winkle that sat on my forehead for the evening. He's got some nerve to call me up and tell me that he doesn't know love. Wow. Now if that doesn't make a girl feel awesome (and I'm totally being sarcastic here) than I don't know what does.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
What are you thinking?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
It is worse still to be ignorant of your ignorance.
-- Saint Jerome
2. I'm guessing that you occasionally check my homepage and so I just wanted to tell you that I saw you today. I don't think you knew I did, but I did. Actually, Mi Nam was the one that spotted first. As I stood at the lights near Kimbab Nala, his ears perked up and so I looked up; there you were. I eagerly awaited the light change because I wanted to say hi to you. I had so much I wanted to say to you cause I haven't seen you in so long! But, as I saw you cowardly rush away, hanging your head down low, below the street vendor's tent in hope that I wouldn't spot you, I instantly forgot all that I wanted to say. I felt embarrassed for you and was hurt. Your actions only proved to me that you're still immature. I am a grown woman; I am too young to be your mother and tell you how to act like a man. Which makes me wonder how many other times you saw me and ran away without me noticing.
3. Well as it seems, apparently the summer has arrived, or at least temporarily. Today it was so hot out and so after my walk, I hid-away in my apartment, cranked up the air condition and got out the ice coffee mix stashed in the cupboard.
4. I was suppose to go to Yong Chan's big golf tournament today but, considering there was no way I could get to Osan that early (cause of lack of transportation and it being 6am), I had to opt out. I felt bad cause I really wanted to show my support to him. I know we had our rocky start to our friendship but now we're good friends. He's always been there for me and he always goes out of his way to show me friendship.
5. Turns out something big went down at the tournament and so Yong Chan got rushed by ambulance to the hospital in Seoul. Lately he's been complaining about being under the weather and so I think today he just cracked under pressure. I'm not too sure what happened but his manager texted me throughout the day.
6. I'd hate to say this, and I'm totally sorry if I'm wrong, but honestly I thought it was some kind of sick joke he was playing. I say this cause of my initial run-in with Yong Chan was quite the dramatic scene. He was quite the Drama King... not quite as dramatic as Drama Boy though but none the less, very exaggerated. More so though, the fact that the text messages (that were supposedly from his manager) sounded just like Yong Chan's style of broken English, made me question it. They sounded too dramatic and a little bit far-fetched. I think a manager messaging random people "Oh my gosh..." is rather unprofessional and screams, "I want attention."
7. I didn't know what to think... was Yong Chan really not ok? Should I rush off to Seoul to see him? Well, I decided to stay put for the time being and so for the rest of the day I played phone tag with his manager.
8. On a different note, I found my much beloved and totally grieved over Anna Sui lip gloss that I thought I had lost... big smile there! Hehehe
9. Hit the gym and did a wicked arm work-out. Buff Boy was busy in the squash court but he was able to sneak away for a bit to talk to me. For the most part though, I was stuck training alone... correction, I was quite the sight for these two new girls who's eyes were apparently glued on me. What, haven't they seen a foreigner before or is it that they haven't seen a woman with muscle before?! Regardless, it made me so agitated. I could feel their stares burning a whole in the back of my head and Newbie caught on to this. I don't know what he said to them but then they blushed, bowed in my direction and then went along their way. After that, Newbie checked up on me a few times, watched my technique and offered some advice. I respect that. Thanks.
10. No credit given to Pretty Boy today for any smile that may have graced my face. If anything, today I give him all due credit for the stress winkle that sat on my forehead for the evening. He's got some nerve to call me up and tell me that he doesn't know love. Wow. Now if that doesn't make a girl feel awesome (and I'm totally being sarcastic here) than I don't know what does.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
What are you thinking?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
It is worse still to be ignorant of your ignorance.
-- Saint Jerome
Friday, May 25, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Friday, May 25
1. Well, I didn't wake up with the black of blackest hearts, instead I woke up to a text message from Pretty Boy. It was nothing special, kind of rude actually. That's all I got from him all day though. Hmm.... I figured that because love is this so-called "Cat and Mouse" game that I'd try to push him into being the cat. And so I stuck to my promise that I had made to Hannah and didn't text or call him all day... that was hard but I figure he'd give in. He didn't.
2. And if waking up and being disappointed with still having a heart and it being crushed so early in the morning, Mi Nam had the worst gas today!!! I'm SERIOUSLY thinking about checking this little boy into the doggie hospital for fear of my hair either being totally curled or the wallpaper peeling off the wall cause of his gas!!!
3. Had quite the interesting conversation with my Elite Class today in regards to my boxing incident last Monday. I told them all about my Nazi boxing trainer and his super crazy, majorly intense, hardcore training and abuse he puts me through. All 3 students claimed that they are convinced this means he must like me! Oh my gosh... are we back in grade three where they boys would pull your hair if they liked you?! This must me he's totally, head over heels, madly in love with me.... hehehe.
4. So funny... one of my students is named Bobby and well, today they changed his name to that of my brothers, Bobby-B. It's rather ironic considering they're opposites in every sense of the word but the name rolls of the tongue quite nicely and so it's funny to say.... ok, so this story wasn't as funny telling it as I thought. I guess you really had to be there.... hmmm... pass!
5. Got my first office call from a student. I was quite excited too. It was a student from my Friday night class. He wasn't able to come to last class and he wouldn't be coming to tonight's class. Trying to explain this and me trying to understand this was quite the difficult task. I gave up trying to speak in English and thus resorted to pure Konglish.... hehehe. It's funny how these students sound like 12 year olds on the phone... so cute!
6. My evening class was quite relaxed tonight and full of laughs. They're always quite nervous at volunteering to come up to the front and so tonight I offered them an awesome bribe... the
chance to change their last quiz mark to a perfect mark if they volunteered to write their answer on the board. I had written a set of directions on the board and told them to come pick out the errors in them. Congrats to Young Hoon who scored the bribe!!!
7. Hit the gym and ended up kicking my own butt on the treadmill. While the other girls on the treadmills gracefully jogged, I busted my butt and sprinted... leaving me drenched in sweat. I was so past the stage of glowing; I was soaked and I loved it!
8. Finally figured out what song to do a music video to. I figured I'd either do a song by Madonna, Pink or Gwen Stefani. My love for Madonna is obvious... she's the Queen of pop with a totally-toned body. She's pushed the limits and has put in motion various trends. But as for Pink and Gwen Stefani, I love Pink's independent and tough girl attitude. She's small but full of spunk and doesn't try to be all girlie. I love Gwen's uniqueness and style... and her wicked blonde hair!!!
9. How ironic is this, tonight I got relationship advice from a guy I use to date... Mr. Money Bags. Tonight I talked to him on msn. Every time I chat with him he always jokes around and says that he's waiting for me to come back and marry him. I know he's joking but honestly, it doesn't sound that bad of a deal. Considering the bad luck that I have with love, I figure that if I wait around for my Prince, I'm bound to only end up a single old lady with ten billion cats and knitting as my hobby. Don't get me wrong, you should marry for love
but then again, what about arrange marriages?! One of my friends in Canada who's Pakistani had an arranged marriage. She didn't love him at first but she grew to love him and now they've been married for 10 years!
10. So, the thought of marrying Mr. Money Bags isn't such a far-fetched idea... hmmm. My parents really liked him, my brother liked him cause he had a Porshe, my friends loved him cause he had his own company and so they got to go to posh parties,... but then again, I didn't love him. He was ten years older than me and although he was everything I thought I could ever find in a mate, he was all about his work. He just didn't know how to relax and not think about work.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Would you ever agree to an arranged marriage?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
Desire, ask, believe, receive.
-- Stella Terrill Mann
2. And if waking up and being disappointed with still having a heart and it being crushed so early in the morning, Mi Nam had the worst gas today!!! I'm SERIOUSLY thinking about checking this little boy into the doggie hospital for fear of my hair either being totally curled or the wallpaper peeling off the wall cause of his gas!!!
3. Had quite the interesting conversation with my Elite Class today in regards to my boxing incident last Monday. I told them all about my Nazi boxing trainer and his super crazy, majorly intense, hardcore training and abuse he puts me through. All 3 students claimed that they are convinced this means he must like me! Oh my gosh... are we back in grade three where they boys would pull your hair if they liked you?! This must me he's totally, head over heels, madly in love with me.... hehehe.
4. So funny... one of my students is named Bobby and well, today they changed his name to that of my brothers, Bobby-B. It's rather ironic considering they're opposites in every sense of the word but the name rolls of the tongue quite nicely and so it's funny to say.... ok, so this story wasn't as funny telling it as I thought. I guess you really had to be there.... hmmm... pass!
5. Got my first office call from a student. I was quite excited too. It was a student from my Friday night class. He wasn't able to come to last class and he wouldn't be coming to tonight's class. Trying to explain this and me trying to understand this was quite the difficult task. I gave up trying to speak in English and thus resorted to pure Konglish.... hehehe. It's funny how these students sound like 12 year olds on the phone... so cute!
6. My evening class was quite relaxed tonight and full of laughs. They're always quite nervous at volunteering to come up to the front and so tonight I offered them an awesome bribe... the
chance to change their last quiz mark to a perfect mark if they volunteered to write their answer on the board. I had written a set of directions on the board and told them to come pick out the errors in them. Congrats to Young Hoon who scored the bribe!!!7. Hit the gym and ended up kicking my own butt on the treadmill. While the other girls on the treadmills gracefully jogged, I busted my butt and sprinted... leaving me drenched in sweat. I was so past the stage of glowing; I was soaked and I loved it!
8. Finally figured out what song to do a music video to. I figured I'd either do a song by Madonna, Pink or Gwen Stefani. My love for Madonna is obvious... she's the Queen of pop with a totally-toned body. She's pushed the limits and has put in motion various trends. But as for Pink and Gwen Stefani, I love Pink's independent and tough girl attitude. She's small but full of spunk and doesn't try to be all girlie. I love Gwen's uniqueness and style... and her wicked blonde hair!!!
9. How ironic is this, tonight I got relationship advice from a guy I use to date... Mr. Money Bags. Tonight I talked to him on msn. Every time I chat with him he always jokes around and says that he's waiting for me to come back and marry him. I know he's joking but honestly, it doesn't sound that bad of a deal. Considering the bad luck that I have with love, I figure that if I wait around for my Prince, I'm bound to only end up a single old lady with ten billion cats and knitting as my hobby. Don't get me wrong, you should marry for love
but then again, what about arrange marriages?! One of my friends in Canada who's Pakistani had an arranged marriage. She didn't love him at first but she grew to love him and now they've been married for 10 years! 10. So, the thought of marrying Mr. Money Bags isn't such a far-fetched idea... hmmm. My parents really liked him, my brother liked him cause he had a Porshe, my friends loved him cause he had his own company and so they got to go to posh parties,... but then again, I didn't love him. He was ten years older than me and although he was everything I thought I could ever find in a mate, he was all about his work. He just didn't know how to relax and not think about work.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Would you ever agree to an arranged marriage?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
Desire, ask, believe, receive.
-- Stella Terrill Mann
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Thursday, May 24
1. Well, I’d love to tell you of my morning but considering I woke up at 2pm, I guess there’s not much to say except for the fact that I’m sure I rolled around in my bed sheets and Mi Nam chewed on my hair while I slept… hehehe. Today was Buddha's birthday and so I had no school. Various things were closed, including my gym and so I had no real reason to wake up.
2. Ran into a super uncomfortable and totally nerve racking situation that, trust me if I could I would, but I seriously can not post about. Let’s just say either I’m reading too much into the situation or I did in fact bite off more than I can chew.
3. Anyway, so I called up Pretty Boy, naturally, cause he is my boyfriend and well, that’s what boyfriends are for. Turns out he doesn’t understand that. Maybe he misunderstood the situation, maybe I misunderstood his title as boyfriend. But for whatever reason, it only added to my stress.
4. So, I called up Hannah and insisted that she head out with me for a late night girl chat. I needed someone to vent to; someone to calm me down.
5. Definitely the highlight of my day was when I told Hannah that Buff Boy had a chest bigger than 99% of the female population here in Korea (the 1% being us foreign chicks.. just jokes). In response, she yelled out, “I want to touch his breasts!”… hehehe. Oh my gosh! I take it she doesn’t know the word “chest” and the fact that women have breasts, men have chests. I laughed so hard and was in tears…. So funny!
WARNING… THE FOLLOWING IS ME DOING NOTHING BUT VENTING!!!
6. Maybe Hannah was right. She’s not the only one to claim that love is a game. It’s a silly cat and mouse game in which I repeatedly find myself being the foolish cat. Love is only a game because certain people make it out to be that and I just so happen to be the one who dates these gamers. Everyone in life wants to love and be loved but neither men nor women really understand each other and thus it turns into this mix-matched game of miscommunication, heartache and disappointment.
7. I’ve waited long enough for my Prince Charming but in the mean time I’ve kissed too many frogs hoping they’d turn into my prince. No such luck. A frog is a frog. The only guy that’s shown me real love (besides my father but that doesn’t count in this situation) is that of my four-legged, poop-eating, pillow-drooling dog Mi Nam. The highlight of his day is seeing me come home by wh
ich, regardless of how sleepy he is, he runs happily to greet me with his stump-of-a-tail wagging behind him. It’d be nice to be the highlight of a two-legged man’s day as oppose to Mi Nam’s. Will Mi Nam be the greatest love of my life… is this as good as love will get for me?!!! Oh my gosh!!!
8. When I was in university my friends use to call me “Sugga Mama”. I use to joke around and say, “They don’t call me Sugga cause I’m sweet”. Truth be known, they called me that because I always had my share of guys chasing me. I dated a lot simply
because I didn’t want to be the “Single Girl” and it came with lots of perks – drives to school, help with homework, trips to the beach, and so on. But it seemed that by the end of the month I’d be bored with Mr. What’s-His-Name and so I’d get another flavour of the month. I was like a walking, talking, breathing Baskin Robins. I knew I broke many hearts but I didn’t really think two cents about it. I simply didn’t believe in love. Or at least I didn’t believe love would ever find me. But now the tables have turned and I’m convinced that me falling in love is 
God’s punishment, a kind of revenge on behalf of all the dudes I left broken-hearted.
9. When it comes to love, my heart comes with a warning, “Fragile; Handle with care”, that men repeatively seem to ignore. Maybe I should make it more obvious and write it on my forehead or have it printed on my business card. Love has made me out as a fool, yet again, and tonight I was quite embarrassed in front of Hannah and hurt when Pretty Boy hung up on me. This is pure
B.S. I may love him so much but it has made me a sensitive and weak woman. I can’t focus, can’t think, I’ve lost sleep, lost my appetite,… and for what? For the weekly kiss?!!! Oh please… Mi Nam would drown me in kisses if I were to let him.
10. And so, on that note, I gave up and as I said my bedtime prayers I prayed to God that I’d wake up tomorrow with the blackest of black hearts. Maybe life would have been better if I had never tasted love. I rather feel nothing than the roller coaster of emotions that “love” has thrown me on. Call me melodramatic, overly-sensitive... I don't care. This is what I feel.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
What's the point of love?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down.
-- Woody Allen
2. Ran into a super uncomfortable and totally nerve racking situation that, trust me if I could I would, but I seriously can not post about. Let’s just say either I’m reading too much into the situation or I did in fact bite off more than I can chew.
3. Anyway, so I called up Pretty Boy, naturally, cause he is my boyfriend and well, that’s what boyfriends are for. Turns out he doesn’t understand that. Maybe he misunderstood the situation, maybe I misunderstood his title as boyfriend. But for whatever reason, it only added to my stress.
4. So, I called up Hannah and insisted that she head out with me for a late night girl chat. I needed someone to vent to; someone to calm me down.
5. Definitely the highlight of my day was when I told Hannah that Buff Boy had a chest bigger than 99% of the female population here in Korea (the 1% being us foreign chicks.. just jokes). In response, she yelled out, “I want to touch his breasts!”… hehehe. Oh my gosh! I take it she doesn’t know the word “chest” and the fact that women have breasts, men have chests. I laughed so hard and was in tears…. So funny!
WARNING… THE FOLLOWING IS ME DOING NOTHING BUT VENTING!!!
6. Maybe Hannah was right. She’s not the only one to claim that love is a game. It’s a silly cat and mouse game in which I repeatedly find myself being the foolish cat. Love is only a game because certain people make it out to be that and I just so happen to be the one who dates these gamers. Everyone in life wants to love and be loved but neither men nor women really understand each other and thus it turns into this mix-matched game of miscommunication, heartache and disappointment.
7. I’ve waited long enough for my Prince Charming but in the mean time I’ve kissed too many frogs hoping they’d turn into my prince. No such luck. A frog is a frog. The only guy that’s shown me real love (besides my father but that doesn’t count in this situation) is that of my four-legged, poop-eating, pillow-drooling dog Mi Nam. The highlight of his day is seeing me come home by wh
ich, regardless of how sleepy he is, he runs happily to greet me with his stump-of-a-tail wagging behind him. It’d be nice to be the highlight of a two-legged man’s day as oppose to Mi Nam’s. Will Mi Nam be the greatest love of my life… is this as good as love will get for me?!!! Oh my gosh!!! 8. When I was in university my friends use to call me “Sugga Mama”. I use to joke around and say, “They don’t call me Sugga cause I’m sweet”. Truth be known, they called me that because I always had my share of guys chasing me. I dated a lot simply
because I didn’t want to be the “Single Girl” and it came with lots of perks – drives to school, help with homework, trips to the beach, and so on. But it seemed that by the end of the month I’d be bored with Mr. What’s-His-Name and so I’d get another flavour of the month. I was like a walking, talking, breathing Baskin Robins. I knew I broke many hearts but I didn’t really think two cents about it. I simply didn’t believe in love. Or at least I didn’t believe love would ever find me. But now the tables have turned and I’m convinced that me falling in love is 
God’s punishment, a kind of revenge on behalf of all the dudes I left broken-hearted. 9. When it comes to love, my heart comes with a warning, “Fragile; Handle with care”, that men repeatively seem to ignore. Maybe I should make it more obvious and write it on my forehead or have it printed on my business card. Love has made me out as a fool, yet again, and tonight I was quite embarrassed in front of Hannah and hurt when Pretty Boy hung up on me. This is pure
B.S. I may love him so much but it has made me a sensitive and weak woman. I can’t focus, can’t think, I’ve lost sleep, lost my appetite,… and for what? For the weekly kiss?!!! Oh please… Mi Nam would drown me in kisses if I were to let him. 10. And so, on that note, I gave up and as I said my bedtime prayers I prayed to God that I’d wake up tomorrow with the blackest of black hearts. Maybe life would have been better if I had never tasted love. I rather feel nothing than the roller coaster of emotions that “love” has thrown me on. Call me melodramatic, overly-sensitive... I don't care. This is what I feel.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
What's the point of love?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down.
-- Woody Allen
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Wednesday, May 23
1. It was my day off and yet at 5:30am I woke up. I had lots to do before Pretty Boy came over and so at the crack of dawn I woke up, ran the stairs, headed off for my meeting and then was back by 8:30am. Pretty Boy didn't come over till around noon and so it meant that I got in a few extra hours of sleep.
2. With no real plans for today except for getting in as much kisses from Pretty Boy as I possibly could, we hung around the house for a couple of hours doing nothing in particular except enjoying each other's company.
3. Pretty Boy and I cruised around downtown, hand-in-hand. I had asked him to help me with the whole phone situation. You see, my other phone was in my ex's name cause I did
n't have a credit card, but now I have one.... sweet. Pretty Boy tried to convince me to buy the new Prada phone but at $800 there's no way I'd drop cash like that. Ended up getting the same phone as Pretty Boy... how cute. Now we have couple phones.... hehehe.
n't have a credit card, but now I have one.... sweet. Pretty Boy tried to convince me to buy the new Prada phone but at $800 there's no way I'd drop cash like that. Ended up getting the same phone as Pretty Boy... how cute. Now we have couple phones.... hehehe.4. While sitting outside, enjoying the beautiful weather and my even more beautiful man, I snuck a kiss only to look up and notice one of my university students walking by. She was giggling. I so know that when I teach her class on Friday the girls will have 
been filled in on "Professor Michelle kissing her Korean boyfriend in public"... hehehe.
been filled in on "Professor Michelle kissing her Korean boyfriend in public"... hehehe. 5. It was time for Pretty Boy to leave Cheonan, once again. Saying good-bye to him definitely wasn't as hard as the first time but none the less it sucked!!! As he got on the bus I waved good-bye and then turned and ran. I blazed it through the bus terminal to the street corner where I was hoping to get one last glance of him. I arrived right on time and just as his bus was going through the intersection, traffic ahead of it stopped, leaving his bus in the middle of the crosswalk... right where I was walking!!! It was so cute... there he sat in his seat waving at me. I ran up to his window and yelled out "I love you!"
6. As traffic cleared and his bus moved on, I saw his head pop up above his seat and he waved to me. I was definitely all giggles and so I'm sure I looked silly but I didn't care. I waved good-bye and even yelled out to him again even though I knew he couldn't have possibly heard me.
7. No sooner had I got home but then Carman texted me. I knew if I stayed home I'd start thinking about being alone yet again and so I decided to meet up with her. I took her to this awesome sushi restaurant. Sooooo delicious!!!
8. What was intended as a quick get-together, turned into quite the evening with us then heading over to Coffee Bean for coffee. We walked in and instantly spotted Sean, my co-worker. He was there with a lady and so Carmen and I hid behind the wall pillar. We didn't know if he was on a date or not and so we wanted to check out the scene first.... hehehe.
9. Came out of our hiding and ended up joining Sean and his friend for coffee. I'm sorry but I can't remember her name.... that's where my old-age is my excuse... hehehe. Anyway, she works in the second floor of my building and her English is awesome. The four of us sat around joking and chatting. I entertained them with my boxing horror story... hehehe.
10. Came home and called up my mom. It was her birthday yesterday. I had left a couple of messages on her answering machine but wanted to hear her voice. We talked for quite a long time but it was good. I chatted with my dad for a bit too.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
When we see each other again?
When we see each other again?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
Life is a foreign language; all men mispronounce it.
-- Christopher Morley
Life is a foreign language; all men mispronounce it.
-- Christopher Morley
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Tuesday, May 22
1. In my huge anticipation to finally see Pretty Boy after what felt like weeks, I sprung out of my bedsheets at the crack of dawn, went for a jog and then came back to shower. It was 7:40 am and so I then headed over to the bus terminal in hopes of surprising him. I was so eager to see him. I waited two hours, he never came.
2. Around 10am I decided to give up and so I went home. By then I was getting weird looks from the workers in the terminal. I'm sure they must have thought I was homeless. Anyway, I then called Pretty Boy. My call woke him up and so I was hurt. I hung up.
3. By the time Pretty Boy finally arrived in Cheonan, it was time for me to head off to school. I was so anxious to see him though and so I met up with him. I saw him from the distance and all I wanted to do was run through the busy traffic and wrap my arms around him. But, he seemed different and so I headed off to school wondering if he really missed me. I know I shouldn't have read into it but hey, I'm a chick. Sometimes us girls are just sensitive like that. Maybe I just hyped this day up to much... hmm.
4. As if Korea wasn't already bombarding me enough with it's "s-line" slogans, pictures, media and whatnot, but the other day Wild Child's mother flat out told me I had a big butt. Today I was out looking at pants and the sales lady suggested that the pants "aren't right" for me. Now listen here, I have NEVER had complaints in Canada about my Polish booty. Actually, my ex in Canada was quite all about it... hehehe. Anyway, besides the butt comments, the other day a "certain someone" suggested that I am a "small" woman, and by that he was hinting at my chest. What's that all about?!!! May I remind him that the only bras I can find here in my size are made for old ajummas (old woman) who's bodies are like twice my size!!! I consider myself to be a small girl with some not-so-small parts. Carmen reassured me that I don't have a big bum and that I have a good set of..... hmmm.... teeth. Hehehe. Thanks Carmen. Hehehe....
5. Class was interesting today. I really like my Tuesday classes cause the students are more relaxed and they really try hard to participate. We simply have a lot of fun in class. The other day it was "Adult Day" here in Korea. It's a day when you give cake and flowers to those who are 21 years of age. Anyway, the joke of the day today was the fact that one of my students saw me yesterday walking around downtown with a cake and so they assumed this could only mean that either my boyfriend is 21 or I'm 21. Neither of us are 21 but they had a good time joking about it. They have no idea how old I am... hehehe.
6. Pretty Boy picked me up from school and so I finally got to sit down with him. Koreans are definitely not into public displays of affection and so I had to wait till we were home before I could get in that much anticipated kiss.... wow! I don't know how to explain it other to say that he's so intoxicating to me. I love that guy so much!!!
7. After Mi Nam was somewhat successful at destroying Pretty Boy's hat (... sooo bad!) and then attempted to eat a cigarette, it was obvious that Mi Nam was jealous that Pretty Boy was getting my attention and so up on the stair I put him for time out. Mi Nam may be a French bulldog and so he's considered a muscle dog but he's by no means a tough boy. Oh no! He's a super sensitive boy who is afraid of heights and so carrying him up and down the stairs petrifies him. He gets nervous when people pick him up and so sitting him on the second step is huge to him.
8. Finding out that Pretty Boy had gone out late last night caused me to really question whether or not today was important to him. After all, I had been waiting for this day since the minute he left. We ended up getting into an argument in which I ran out of my house and headed up to the 14th floor balcony in tears. There I waited for him. I was not going to go down. I had told myself that I'd wait x number of minutes and there I sat. He came up to get me. We hugged, I cried, and then he took me by the hand and brought me back home. Since I've moved to Korea, I've really noticed just how sensitive I now am, especially with relationships. I think too much sometimes and so I know I need to stop thinking so much and just enjoy it for what it's worth. I know Pretty Boy doesn't honestly mean to upset me but he always knows exactly what to do and what to say to bring me back down on the silly emotional roller coaster I occasionally jump on.
9. I do love Pretty Boy though. Regardless of whatever silly disagreements we may have, I think he's a great guy who I totally adore. I know that we're not exactly on the same page right now in terms of what we want from this relationship but with him, I can wait to see where this goes. I know in my heart he is totally worth it. And so on that note, we sat on the floor and shared our anniversary cake. I made him make a wish and then we blew out the cake candles together. It was such a Kodak moment... hehehe. We even cut the cake together like how they do in wedding ceremonies.
10. By the time I agreed to let Mi Nam off the step, he had worked himself up so much. He was shaking and panting. So, he chugged his water and then passed out for a good couple, solid hours. What a big baby!
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Do you have to go?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
If you greatly desire something, have the guts to stake everything on obtaining it.
-- Brendan Francis
2. Around 10am I decided to give up and so I went home. By then I was getting weird looks from the workers in the terminal. I'm sure they must have thought I was homeless. Anyway, I then called Pretty Boy. My call woke him up and so I was hurt. I hung up.
3. By the time Pretty Boy finally arrived in Cheonan, it was time for me to head off to school. I was so anxious to see him though and so I met up with him. I saw him from the distance and all I wanted to do was run through the busy traffic and wrap my arms around him. But, he seemed different and so I headed off to school wondering if he really missed me. I know I shouldn't have read into it but hey, I'm a chick. Sometimes us girls are just sensitive like that. Maybe I just hyped this day up to much... hmm.
4. As if Korea wasn't already bombarding me enough with it's "s-line" slogans, pictures, media and whatnot, but the other day Wild Child's mother flat out told me I had a big butt. Today I was out looking at pants and the sales lady suggested that the pants "aren't right" for me. Now listen here, I have NEVER had complaints in Canada about my Polish booty. Actually, my ex in Canada was quite all about it... hehehe. Anyway, besides the butt comments, the other day a "certain someone" suggested that I am a "small" woman, and by that he was hinting at my chest. What's that all about?!!! May I remind him that the only bras I can find here in my size are made for old ajummas (old woman) who's bodies are like twice my size!!! I consider myself to be a small girl with some not-so-small parts. Carmen reassured me that I don't have a big bum and that I have a good set of..... hmmm.... teeth. Hehehe. Thanks Carmen. Hehehe....
5. Class was interesting today. I really like my Tuesday classes cause the students are more relaxed and they really try hard to participate. We simply have a lot of fun in class. The other day it was "Adult Day" here in Korea. It's a day when you give cake and flowers to those who are 21 years of age. Anyway, the joke of the day today was the fact that one of my students saw me yesterday walking around downtown with a cake and so they assumed this could only mean that either my boyfriend is 21 or I'm 21. Neither of us are 21 but they had a good time joking about it. They have no idea how old I am... hehehe.
6. Pretty Boy picked me up from school and so I finally got to sit down with him. Koreans are definitely not into public displays of affection and so I had to wait till we were home before I could get in that much anticipated kiss.... wow! I don't know how to explain it other to say that he's so intoxicating to me. I love that guy so much!!!
7. After Mi Nam was somewhat successful at destroying Pretty Boy's hat (... sooo bad!) and then attempted to eat a cigarette, it was obvious that Mi Nam was jealous that Pretty Boy was getting my attention and so up on the stair I put him for time out. Mi Nam may be a French bulldog and so he's considered a muscle dog but he's by no means a tough boy. Oh no! He's a super sensitive boy who is afraid of heights and so carrying him up and down the stairs petrifies him. He gets nervous when people pick him up and so sitting him on the second step is huge to him.
8. Finding out that Pretty Boy had gone out late last night caused me to really question whether or not today was important to him. After all, I had been waiting for this day since the minute he left. We ended up getting into an argument in which I ran out of my house and headed up to the 14th floor balcony in tears. There I waited for him. I was not going to go down. I had told myself that I'd wait x number of minutes and there I sat. He came up to get me. We hugged, I cried, and then he took me by the hand and brought me back home. Since I've moved to Korea, I've really noticed just how sensitive I now am, especially with relationships. I think too much sometimes and so I know I need to stop thinking so much and just enjoy it for what it's worth. I know Pretty Boy doesn't honestly mean to upset me but he always knows exactly what to do and what to say to bring me back down on the silly emotional roller coaster I occasionally jump on.
9. I do love Pretty Boy though. Regardless of whatever silly disagreements we may have, I think he's a great guy who I totally adore. I know that we're not exactly on the same page right now in terms of what we want from this relationship but with him, I can wait to see where this goes. I know in my heart he is totally worth it. And so on that note, we sat on the floor and shared our anniversary cake. I made him make a wish and then we blew out the cake candles together. It was such a Kodak moment... hehehe. We even cut the cake together like how they do in wedding ceremonies.
10. By the time I agreed to let Mi Nam off the step, he had worked himself up so much. He was shaking and panting. So, he chugged his water and then passed out for a good couple, solid hours. What a big baby!
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Do you have to go?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
If you greatly desire something, have the guts to stake everything on obtaining it.
-- Brendan Francis
Monday, May 21, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Monday, May 21
1. The other day I sat down and had a serious thought about my boxing. I just don’t want to give it up, not yet. So, with that in mind, I set my alarm clock nice and early and headed out around 6am to go see Mr. Kim at his boxing gym in Seoul.
2. No sooner had I started putting on my hand wraps but Mr. Kim was already starting to take jabs at me. This man has no sensitive tooth for me, or anyone else for that matter and so he gets right down to business. I respect that and I respect him but he’s always yelling at me. He repeatedly asks me questions and then gets mad at me when I don’t respond… I guess he thinks I miraculously have learned to speak fluent Korean since the last time he yelled at me.
3. So there I was, in the ring with Mr. Kim… the Korean Nazi of
boxing! I’m convinced Mr. Kim could make even Hitler bow down to him. I had just finished putting on my gloves but by then Mr. Kim had already given me a few good rib shots. I was furious. I’m convinced he purposely makes me mad in order for me to train ha
rder and I do in fact train harder but I’m not as focused though. All I think about is trying to avoid his punches and trying to score that one sweet knock-out punch as oppose to the technical work I’m doing. I’d love to just knock that man out though… put him in his place!
4. By the fifth round I was fuming. He had hit me way too hard and one too many times in the head. By now I had lost my mouth guard. I threw down one of my gloves to tell him I wanted to stop but he stopped one punch too late. That one punch was enough to knock me off my feet and so I was seeing stars.
5. That was my exit cue. I ended up picking up my mouth guard and throwing it at him. Actually, I threw my water bottle at him too. How dare he push me to that limit. I know boxing isn’t an easy sport, that’s why I’m doing it, but I lost some respect for him today. He seemed to have no concern for me as an athlete and instead treated me like we were in some kind of underground chicken fight. He yelled at me to come back and so I yelled at him with some of the more “colourful” Korean words I had learned on the subway. As I turned to look back at him, he stood there with the biggest smirk on his face. He know
s I’ll be back.
6. By the time my bus got me back to Cheonan, I had somewhat cooled down. I then had to rush off to school for my one class…. my craft major students. I was in no mood to deal with those three particular students in this class who ALWAYS are so rude. These three girls, I tell ya, they sleep in my class, text message and then ask to go to the bathroom so that they can phone their friends. Mark my words, if they cause me problems next week, I WILL kick them out of class. I’ve had enough with them.
7. During class I had noticed a big bump forming on my head and by the time class finished, I was now feeling sick. My adrenaline from the morning training had finally worn off and so when I went to go see Sue tonight I ended up puking on the side of the road.
8. Ended up being taken to the hospital where the doctor poked at my forehead, causing me to totally squirm in my seat, and then he gave me a shot in the butt. Leave it to Koreans to give you some random needle in the butt. I don’t know what that was all about but it’s definitely a Korean thing…. Hehehe. Turns out I have a minor head concussion and a bruised ego… hehehe.
9. I was suppose to train with Buff Boy today and so I headed out to the gym. I got about 20 minutes through my bicep training before I felt dizzy and called it a day. My head was pounding. Buff Boy was all proud of the massive bump I was sporting.
10. In anticipation of Pretty Boy coming home, I cleaned my house from top to bottom… again. He told me that there might be a slight chance of him being able to coming home tonight and so, like a kid on Christmas Eve hwaiting for the arrival of Santa, I stayed up. I was all bright eyed and super anxious. I thougt maybe he’d come super late and so instead of crawling into bed, I reapplied my make-up, fixed my hair and then curled up on the couch. He never came. He’ll be here tomorrow then.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Is that man normal?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
-- Friedrich Nietzsche
2. No sooner had I started putting on my hand wraps but Mr. Kim was already starting to take jabs at me. This man has no sensitive tooth for me, or anyone else for that matter and so he gets right down to business. I respect that and I respect him but he’s always yelling at me. He repeatedly asks me questions and then gets mad at me when I don’t respond… I guess he thinks I miraculously have learned to speak fluent Korean since the last time he yelled at me.
3. So there I was, in the ring with Mr. Kim… the Korean Nazi of
boxing! I’m convinced Mr. Kim could make even Hitler bow down to him. I had just finished putting on my gloves but by then Mr. Kim had already given me a few good rib shots. I was furious. I’m convinced he purposely makes me mad in order for me to train ha
rder and I do in fact train harder but I’m not as focused though. All I think about is trying to avoid his punches and trying to score that one sweet knock-out punch as oppose to the technical work I’m doing. I’d love to just knock that man out though… put him in his place!4. By the fifth round I was fuming. He had hit me way too hard and one too many times in the head. By now I had lost my mouth guard. I threw down one of my gloves to tell him I wanted to stop but he stopped one punch too late. That one punch was enough to knock me off my feet and so I was seeing stars.
5. That was my exit cue. I ended up picking up my mouth guard and throwing it at him. Actually, I threw my water bottle at him too. How dare he push me to that limit. I know boxing isn’t an easy sport, that’s why I’m doing it, but I lost some respect for him today. He seemed to have no concern for me as an athlete and instead treated me like we were in some kind of underground chicken fight. He yelled at me to come back and so I yelled at him with some of the more “colourful” Korean words I had learned on the subway. As I turned to look back at him, he stood there with the biggest smirk on his face. He know
s I’ll be back.6. By the time my bus got me back to Cheonan, I had somewhat cooled down. I then had to rush off to school for my one class…. my craft major students. I was in no mood to deal with those three particular students in this class who ALWAYS are so rude. These three girls, I tell ya, they sleep in my class, text message and then ask to go to the bathroom so that they can phone their friends. Mark my words, if they cause me problems next week, I WILL kick them out of class. I’ve had enough with them.
7. During class I had noticed a big bump forming on my head and by the time class finished, I was now feeling sick. My adrenaline from the morning training had finally worn off and so when I went to go see Sue tonight I ended up puking on the side of the road.
8. Ended up being taken to the hospital where the doctor poked at my forehead, causing me to totally squirm in my seat, and then he gave me a shot in the butt. Leave it to Koreans to give you some random needle in the butt. I don’t know what that was all about but it’s definitely a Korean thing…. Hehehe. Turns out I have a minor head concussion and a bruised ego… hehehe.
9. I was suppose to train with Buff Boy today and so I headed out to the gym. I got about 20 minutes through my bicep training before I felt dizzy and called it a day. My head was pounding. Buff Boy was all proud of the massive bump I was sporting.
10. In anticipation of Pretty Boy coming home, I cleaned my house from top to bottom… again. He told me that there might be a slight chance of him being able to coming home tonight and so, like a kid on Christmas Eve hwaiting for the arrival of Santa, I stayed up. I was all bright eyed and super anxious. I thougt maybe he’d come super late and so instead of crawling into bed, I reapplied my make-up, fixed my hair and then curled up on the couch. He never came. He’ll be here tomorrow then.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
Is that man normal?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
-- Friedrich Nietzsche
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Highlights of my Day... Sunday, May 20
1. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO PRETTY BOY AND ME!!! Today we celebrate our one month anniversary. I know that may not be important to some but it’s important to me and so, in anticipation of him coming home on Tuesday, I went out and bought a cake. We’re going to do it up Korean style baby! Mind ya, the side order of major kisses is my Canadian touch I’ll be adding… hehehe.
2. After what felt like only a few hours sleep, I then had to wake up. I can’t stand waking up early on the weekend and I’m sure there’s got to be some rule that protects me against this. None the less, my little sister Jenny was coming to see me today and so I had to get up.
3. You see, the thing with Jenny is that she’s not really my little sister; we’re not related at all (as you probably already guessed). She’s my former co-worker’s 15-year-old daughter who is extremely bright and interested in English but has no native English speaker at school to practice with, and so, I agreed to spend time with her. We meet once a month for about 4-5 hours. We have lunch together, play games, go shopping… you know, girl stuff.
4. Today I took Jenny to the fish restaurant that Carmen had brought me on Friday. The lady there was happy to see me again and gave me back my bracelet that I didn’t even realize I had lost… hehehe. (See, that’s Korea for you… honest people!!!)
5. After filling our tummies with fish and veggies, we then shared ice cream in the park. It’s funny cause sometimes when I talk to Jenny, I seem to forget that she’s only 15.
6. But then it hit me, she is still a kid… and so on that note I took her to the Game Plex at Yawoori and challenged her to a game of air hockey, car racing and various other arcade games. I was embarrassed to lose at air hockey considering that’s the only thing us Canadians seem to have. That’s OUR sport!
7. After spending all my change at the Game Plex, we then went back to my house. Jenny totally adores Mi Nam. She lets him jump all over her, lick her face, bite her toes…. BUT, it was all fun and games until Mi Nam did the unthinkable… he tooted! Oh ya… he just let one rip! Yup, out of that cute little doggie came the biggest of big and nastiest of nasty smells!!! I laughed it off cause well, I’m no stranger to the nastiness of Mi Nam’s toots. Jenny, on the other hand, she must have used like half the can of air freshener to try to kill the smell but it left us both choking on the air spray… yikes!
8. I had met up with Jenny at 11am and by 3:30pm she was gone. I was exhausted and so by 4pm I was back in bed.
9. Woke up around 7:30pm only to roll over in bed into a puddle of pee!!! Wow… Mi Nam’s just totally scoring mad brownie points today… damn!!! Mind ya, I didn’t realize I was going to sleep for so long and so poor Mi Nam couldn’t climb down the stairs to his toilet papers.
10. Well, they don’t call me the Queen Procrastinator for nothing! I had all week to mark quizzes and plan tomorrow’s lesson but noooooooooooooooo, I HAD to leave it till midnight tonight. Anything else just wouldn’t be my style I suppose. Hehehe.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
What should I do my next video on?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
You can only be young once. But you can always be immature.
-- Dave Barry
2. After what felt like only a few hours sleep, I then had to wake up. I can’t stand waking up early on the weekend and I’m sure there’s got to be some rule that protects me against this. None the less, my little sister Jenny was coming to see me today and so I had to get up.
3. You see, the thing with Jenny is that she’s not really my little sister; we’re not related at all (as you probably already guessed). She’s my former co-worker’s 15-year-old daughter who is extremely bright and interested in English but has no native English speaker at school to practice with, and so, I agreed to spend time with her. We meet once a month for about 4-5 hours. We have lunch together, play games, go shopping… you know, girl stuff.
4. Today I took Jenny to the fish restaurant that Carmen had brought me on Friday. The lady there was happy to see me again and gave me back my bracelet that I didn’t even realize I had lost… hehehe. (See, that’s Korea for you… honest people!!!)
5. After filling our tummies with fish and veggies, we then shared ice cream in the park. It’s funny cause sometimes when I talk to Jenny, I seem to forget that she’s only 15.
6. But then it hit me, she is still a kid… and so on that note I took her to the Game Plex at Yawoori and challenged her to a game of air hockey, car racing and various other arcade games. I was embarrassed to lose at air hockey considering that’s the only thing us Canadians seem to have. That’s OUR sport!
7. After spending all my change at the Game Plex, we then went back to my house. Jenny totally adores Mi Nam. She lets him jump all over her, lick her face, bite her toes…. BUT, it was all fun and games until Mi Nam did the unthinkable… he tooted! Oh ya… he just let one rip! Yup, out of that cute little doggie came the biggest of big and nastiest of nasty smells!!! I laughed it off cause well, I’m no stranger to the nastiness of Mi Nam’s toots. Jenny, on the other hand, she must have used like half the can of air freshener to try to kill the smell but it left us both choking on the air spray… yikes!
8. I had met up with Jenny at 11am and by 3:30pm she was gone. I was exhausted and so by 4pm I was back in bed.
9. Woke up around 7:30pm only to roll over in bed into a puddle of pee!!! Wow… Mi Nam’s just totally scoring mad brownie points today… damn!!! Mind ya, I didn’t realize I was going to sleep for so long and so poor Mi Nam couldn’t climb down the stairs to his toilet papers.
10. Well, they don’t call me the Queen Procrastinator for nothing! I had all week to mark quizzes and plan tomorrow’s lesson but noooooooooooooooo, I HAD to leave it till midnight tonight. Anything else just wouldn’t be my style I suppose. Hehehe.
QUESTION OF THE DAY...
What should I do my next video on?
QUOTE OF THE DAY...
You can only be young once. But you can always be immature.
-- Dave Barry
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