OK, so forget everything I wrote about being mad I had to travel out to Seoul for KBS filming today.
It was freakin' fun... minus totally bombing on my introduction.
I read over the script in the car, read over it with the crew in the make-up tent and then placed it on my lap when I entered the studio for filming. But then the cameras started rolling, the host and his side quests started talking, and then the host looked at me and suddenly I didn't know what to say. My introduction was as scatterbrained as possibly could and I must have sounded like a typical punch-drunk boxer, great. At first it was so incredibly nerve racking with all the cameras on us -- a camera crew with the director, writer and about 6 or 7 cameras sat in front of me, cameras hung from the corner part of the studio walls, and a translator was speaking to me via an ear piece I had in my left ear. It was sensory overload. At the start of it I had looked down at my FitBit and it noted that my heart was pumping at a rate of 110 beats per minute when my usual heart rate is only 65bpm.
Five minutes later, I was itching to jump into the conversation and say my two cents, just like the host had told me I would. He was right, I just needed to ignore the cameras and the crew.
I was told I didn't have to say my lines word-for-word, I didn't even have to stick to only Korean either, but I did really try to answer all their questions and stick with the conversation using only Korean. For parts where I wanted to say more specifics, like details, I did use English and sometimes I found myself repeating myself in English after giving my answer in Korean. I really wanted them to know what my answer was.
I got a bit of slack over being so overly health conscious by the host and his panel of people but when I gave my answer as to why I'm so health conscious it definitely struck a sensitive spot with me and I found myself struggling to not let the tears fall. Needless to say, I think my tears won that arguement.
Babies and food, that seemed to be the two main topics of today's discussion.
There definitely was a pivital moment when one of the stars of the show responded to what I had said about not wanting a child. "I think that a child deserves someone that wants them and to push me to want a child, well that's not fair to that child". He responded by openinly saying that he was gay, so he couldn't have his own child, but that he thinks a child is a miracle, a gift. To tell you the truth, I really didn't catch what he had said after he voiced that he was gay. There I was, sitting with the cameras rolling and my tank top having had caused such a ruckuos that they almost were forced to figure out what else I could wear, and yet here was this man admitting that he was gay. This isn't Canada and this isn't the States, this is Korea and there is still very much this homophobic vibe. I don't know if they'll air what he said but I definitely heard it and I definitely thought he was all that cooler and braver of a person for owning it. It's his right to own what and who he is but this is Korea and need I say more about that.
It was a very long and very tiring day of filming out in Seoul today but it was also a very fun and informative one. I really appreciated the added opinions and food for thought the host and his panel of guests gave me as well as I also really got a more indepth insight about what Snickers feels about the issues discussed. It was like a group therapy session in a way I suppose and both Snickers and I walked away with definitely a more intense understanding of each other. I know it was just a TV show, it's just TV, but many of the questions they asked were deep and our answers were as revealing as they were sincere.
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