As the story has it, one day I headed to the opposite side of the globe – the Flipside. I arrived in Korea on February 16th, 2005 and thought I’d do a year, then leave. I went from being some random foreign girl to taking on labels I never imagined – university professor, film extra, professional boxer, reality TV star, CEO of my own girls-only fitness company (Flipside Fitness), CEO of my own boxing club (Hulk's Club, formerly known as Hulk's Boxing), and now I'm launching my 3rd business -- Empowered Clubhouse.

After 11.5yrs in Korea, I then picked up one day and returned to Toronto, Canada. But then I left again. This time it was for the Philippines. That's where I am now, living in the land of the happy people. The struggles are real and the struggles are many but I'm living life on my terms, I'm calling the shots, and I'm doing what I love. Life is an amazing adventure and this is my story of yesterday.

Thursday, February 15, 2018

Someone Else Knows... Thursday, February 15

When I walk to the Philippine Army for boxing, I have a 2.5km walk.  Often I listen to music and sing along, other times I let my mind wonder and think of random things.  

Today, on route to boxing, I thought of all my struggles I've been through to get to this particular point, this very spot -- me walking down a busy road in the Philippines, heading out to boxing.  I thought of the hard times in Korea that, at the time, seemed like they'd never end.  The crazy amount of money we borrowed to make Hulk's, the stupid things we did to make Hulk's even happen, the dirty business we got into to make our business legit.  No one will ever really know the excitement and fear I felt owning and operating Hulk's.  To have finally had my dream come true but then needing to step away from it in order to save myself, literally and figuratively save myself.  

No one will ever know. 

And I know, no matter how I explain myself or what finer details I reveal, no one will ever really know.  No one will every fully comprehend my story.

No one will ever really know.

I had just blurted out that last sentence, "no one will every really know", when suddenly a jeepney slowed down and honked at me.  No one got into the jeepney, no one got out of it, and I wasn't close to one of the jeepney stops on that road but there it was, slowly down and honking at me. I stopped, looked up at it and what should be written across the top windshield of that jeepney but two words, "God knows".

And then it drove away.

I was left there standing like a deer caught in the headlights.  I didn't know if that was a sign or just a fluke coincidence and I didn't know if I was freaked out by the relevance of that or comforted.  All I know is that it was too on point.  I had literally just finished saying "no one will ever know" when that happened.  The timing was impeccable.  

Maybe someone else does know and I've just been too caught up in my own thoughts to realize that.

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